darkness sezies u when u're unaware,
& follows u around with around with a smirk
as if challenging u to free urself frm its influence
so addicitive & yet so harmful

i feel so depressed all of a sudden, haha, a big reason is caused by my mum, she always forces me to face what i wish to run away from... or maybe it's e sudden realisation that i wasn't even @ the top of e world in e first place...

it's e unfairness that disgust me... but maybe the fact that some ppl just have e natural talent for this kind of things just make me wonder what am i even gd at... talking rubbish & acting dumb & assholic, being a menace to e society....

she hasn't been doing well either.... she used to score for her grades, we would always pit ourselves against each other... & the most fascinating thing is that we managed to end up in the same class after being "separated" into different classes for 4 years....
i wonder if she's really okay.... i dun like her friends, they seem to bug her alot & nt pay much attention to what she really needs...

she needs all this more than i do....

haha... & the best thing abt her is tt we can just talk abt anything & everything after not seeing/talking to each other for months.... there's nvr this distance....

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy is the world so damn unfair.......

& i behave like a kid...

i rmb that rain
which brough us together
where our paths crossed
and my fantasy became a reality
but that rain didn't last long
not in reality, not in my memories
i rmb that rain...
and that cute guy became the fantasy,,,,