Wednesday, September 29, 2010

form filling form

i don't understand how u can get a GPA of 4.0 and not know how to fill in forms.

it's either our education system has completely turned u into a memorizing machine

or u just simply can't be bothered to think.

talk abt teaching critical thinking to kids


Thursday, September 23, 2010

tt's why u have no friends.

i think i'm very good at watching ppl fall

lying there bloody

bleeding life away

and then walk away from the crime scene as if it's the most natural thing to do

i must be the worst friend u can ever have.

tt's why u have no friends.
this flamer once said to me

so so true.

to u, for u.

u gotta teach me how to network n find a bf.
i told him.

u're never serious.
he said

snorts. so true.

if there's anything abt u. besides the fact that u smoke ciggies n puke alot of crap. is that u always nvr fail to say things that make me think. things that are sometimes so near to the truth.

i guess i just haven found someone to be srious enough with.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

just another day

dear diary

life's been good.i'm coping well in school. surprisingly. maybe it's cus i was prepared for the worst.

my roommate has been slamming doors n throwing her things ard as usual. but i guess anything for one that sucks ur life force out of u. snorts

dad lost his job again.

n now old ah pek is the taboo word at home because dad will become emo momo after hearing this. it doesnt help tt mum becomes an emo momo with the dad. n the boy's crazy truckload of tuition isn't really helping with the financial situation here. god he's such a leech sometimes.

n mum's asking when i'm graduating n getting my 1st pay. fuck. n e stupid thing is she doesn't want me to pay for the family expenses now. she says it gives her more stress. wtf???

sis has dropped the idea of overseas exchange because of our inability to fork out 10 - 20k. but then again, i guess this would make her even more detemined to get e scholarship which will sponsor her masters in europe or wadever.

i guess travelling would be out of e question now...

Sunday, September 19, 2010

in retrospect

i think i was being a total ass/dick/bitch


i'm srry

it's a boy!!!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

we seemed to have been walking in silence, for that moment, since forever

we walked down that road in silence.

that emptiness, once filled, was just another stark reminder of how things used to be,

and how along the way,

the winds changed

and i decided to let the winds take away whatever we shared.

i think some part inside of me just died

like i was defragmented and compartmentalised

and that small part of me which used to be able to be frank, carefree, wildly hilarious, crazily n graphically pornographic just decided that it didn't want to come out anymore.

i think i'm losing myself

that old shitty insane streak

i think i'll miss u


Thursday, September 16, 2010

chip of

“I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken - and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.”
Margaret Mitchell

via twentythree

btw, i'm so full now i'll burst. wahaha

Wednesday, September 15, 2010


“So far away, but still so near
The lights go on, the music dies
but you don’t see me standing here
I just came to say goodbye”
— Robyn, Dancing on my own

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


if it's not worth keeping, then leave it

today's just one very bad day.

where u come to e sudden realisation tt maybe it wasn't such a good idea after all.

it's just tt sometimes we're in a constant state of denial.

i'm gay


Monday, September 13, 2010

u are not safe

thanks for the...

gaming is a hobby, passion, not everyone can understand

it's crazy. it's something u would spend ur heart n soul on

since i can't accomplish tt much in real life

at least i noe there's some skill in e virtual world tt i'm proud of

however to most ppl, i guess it's just stupid n plain childish

i guess we could never understand what was important to the other that wasn't important to another.

which was why u got a significant other

was it not?

thanks for caring

i appreciate it.

fuck uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

cheeeeeeeee baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii


hackers should burn in hellllllllllll


Thursday, September 09, 2010

maybe i shld stop talking since i've nthing more to say

this sem no good. i tell u

boring. are my lecturers.

they ramble onnnnn n onnnnnnnn n onnnnnnnnnnnnnn.


den my life is also boringgggggggg

u noe ppl have writer's block n shit

i have loser's block. all e time. it comes in shit boring cycles.

now it's worse.

i dun even noe what to say when i'm with u

i need someoneeee

someone i can talk to.