Tuesday, November 29, 2011

stupidity stops now

u haf more to lose than to gain
so i obviously wasnt thinking when my act of stupidity was performed
n it is sooooooo easy to convince urself that this guilt
can be easily buried somewhere deep inside

lust. is a more poweful feeling
than love

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


maybe life is about giving it all
without caring abt the returns
n then maybe
maybe, u won't be afraid
of ur heart breaking
because u could always grow another heart back
with hope
with love
n with time

Monday, November 21, 2011

love is

love is simple
my mum said
dun expect fairy tales
u're only expecting disappointments
just love
n keep it simple
every morning
she wakes up with pieces of her life on the floor
n one by one she slowly picks them up
shame guilt joy memorise recollections and what nots
mostly shame now
it's the shame guilt n uncertainty that cuts the most

maybe i'm thinking too much into things
as usual
maybe it's not a big deal
but if u knew i was going to be emo
why didn't u call to ask if i was ok?

maybe she's right
u're not that simple after all

i need a time out
after wednesday
i need to sort things out
with myself
just leave me alone

Sunday, November 20, 2011

cliff jumping

and we took a step too far
so now we're off the cliff
we can't turn back
n decide that we want to stand at the edge again
it's just free falling now
n damn i really hope the parachute will open
before i hit the ground.

3 months
i don't know if i want it to work
or if i just want it to end

Saturday, November 12, 2011


maybe this is why i didn't want to commit.
the effort that would require me to change.
i hate change
n i'm too selfish to do it for someone else

laughter abused

i abuse this joy
too much
n i have only myself to blame
if no one really knows what i'm thinking
i don't really want them to know do i?

i'm so full of shit. i'll just smile n lie in ur face
when i'm just crying inside

Friday, November 11, 2011

the stupid things i do

the night was spent refreshing the changi arrival page
till 'landed' appeared
n i made an estimation of how long it wld take for u to reach home
"welcome home"


Thursday, November 03, 2011

the cheap fallacies that mean nothing to u at all

i don't understand
so am i at fault for feeling this way?
am i not entitled to feel this way?
so just because u make sense all the time n i dont
ur anger would always mean that i am at fault
and thereafter every utterance i make
can only be fuel for ur anger
but not the other way round
i have to be totally at fault
deeply apologetic and show willingness to repent
and most of all be sincere about my apology
if not, nothing else counts
only ur anger n arguments makes sense
e rest, would just be fallacies.
cheap fallacies that mean nothing to u at all