Friday, December 23, 2011

so where are we now love?

i'm srry i gave in more than i should
but tt's life
n it's vices
so what i can do now
is to know what i can do to stop going even further

so that question did the trick
what are we now
and u cldn't give me a reply
u gave me a series of definitions
fine with me
let's play by ur rules then

n u think u understand me
that i am predictable
but maybe i was predictable because i was so afraid of losing u after u came back
because suddenly u became real to me

but not anymore
u may be blinded by ur feelings of love or lust
but i'm more blinded by fear
and the things abt u that don't make sense at all

Thursday, December 22, 2011


they say love changes u
i think love mutates u.
and then we both become so ugly
we cant recognize ourselves anymore

i'm such mess arent i

Monday, December 19, 2011

i'm nt as good as i think i am
don't be a piece of shit

Sunday, December 18, 2011

that's what i'm telling those who know
tt's what i think i am feeling towards this

it's either i'm bored
i can't talk to u
i don't trust u
i dont think i know u
or i don't see why i shld be tied down

never make plans for the future more than 3 wks in advance.
u never know when it's gonna end.
i'm srry.
i never believed in love.

or maybe the question now is
do i really love u.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

confessionsions of a fashion disaster

she doesnt understand how a girl would not want to dress up

i do i guess. but not all time. 1 out of 10 times maybe? rest of the time i'm just t shirt shorts n my ipnama sandals.
tt's how i wld like to live my life
fast, simple, easy, haphazard combination, a fashion disaster
something i can run in
something i can sit in anyway i like without bothering if e world saw my wadever is underneath
but most importantly, something i can run with.
not like i run around all the time
but i don't know why
this thought is just in my head whenever i think of what to wear
something i can run in

i cant run in dress can i?

primal maybe?

maybe i lacked the confidence to carry off those hot dresses with bare backs or wadever complicated fashion terms that u haf
but honestly, e rest of the times i can't really be bothered.

i guess i dont understand how she wldn't understand that girls are not just abt dressing up.



Thursday, December 01, 2011

what's on my mind

yes i am bothered by the fact that he has done nothing and is the whole world to u
n we have done everything but am nothing to u

im sorry am i judging?
too bad, he's a loser.