Wednesday, August 29, 2007

First they came...

i once asked my sec 2 kid why he cldn't be bothered abt e world, why he was so apathetic abt e current events. wasn't he a part of this universe as well?
his answer for simply "for wad?!"
i cldn't find a reason to give him.
for me, i simply tot tt being aware of e current affairs was e correct mentality tt i shld have. yet as to why it is e correct mentality, i guess till now, i still do not have a reason to why...

Original Translation
Als die Nazis die Kommunisten holten,
habe ich geschwiegen;
ich war ja kein Kommunist.

Als sie die Sozialdemokraten einsperrten,
habe ich geschwiegen;
ich war ja kein Sozialdemokrat.

Als sie die Gewerkschafter holten,
habe ich nicht protestiert;
ich war ja kein Gewerkschafter.

Als sie mich holten,
gab es keinen mehr, der protestieren konnte.
When the Nazis came for the communists,
I remained silent;
I was not a communist.

When they locked up the social democrats,
I remained silent;
I was not a social democrat.

When they came for the trade unionists,
I did not speak out;
I was not a trade unionist.

When they came for me,
there was no one left to speak out.
Pastor Martin Niemöller (1892–1984)

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

teach less learn less

if u say it's e kids who can't stand it, i find it ironic tt e first one falling down wld be me.

by actually giving them more homework, e only person i'm torturing is myself & nt them. yet i still believe tt this is e only way they can learn with e onslaught of e teach less learn more mentality.

i still believe in e old ways... FIRMLY

so i'm dying now....


some ppl find me a pain in e ass.
don't worry, i'm one of those too....


e weird thing abt me is my colleagues concerns of whether i'm coping in class gives me alot of stress. e fact tt my colleague is my v.p doesn't make e situation any better. i see ppl's every move and comment as a judgment of my actions....

aiyar sian lar i tell u... to e max...


maybe she shld buy this & hang it as her earrings... she needs more bra and underwear...
ok this is getting horny.

and woot, i'm invited for e teacher's day dinner @ changi hotel! yes i noe it sounds damn ulu & changi is most often associated with erhums... but hey, we get to watch sunsets! & chill out with a bunch of educators who just can't wait to barbeque e kids. i bet e menu there will be like...
1. fried brains of stupid kids
2. steamed hands of kids with ugly handwriting
3. stirfried lips of talkative kids

& e main entertainment wld be
live lynching of kids who give teachers hell.

but i guess after all these SCREAMING and SHOUTING & hurling of death threats at this ignorant, stupid but yet smtimes still very innocent bunch, we just need our time outs to gossip abt our latest technique in torturing kids, or reenact how some drama mama sashayed her way down e corridor when being sent out of class.

we still love them, it's just e patience & love tt keeps us thru...

i'm preparing a big bag for fri, those who acknowledge me as a future educator of ur child, do come forward with ur gifts as well, i'll try to reject a few times be4 accepting them so u noe wad u have to do XD

Monday, August 27, 2007

i wonder....

i wonder what wld kids think,
if they saw this on my desk under e to do list...

but then again they can change my mind,
if they wear this ribbon everyday...

but seriously i feel like giving them this as a present for their children's day gift

yes ladies and gentleman, i'm finally suffering frm a burnout, getit? BURNOUT.
i'm sick with flu plus sore throat since thursday.
gogo gaga

and e worse thing is tt my 2 tuition kids didn't do well for their eng class mock test, just passing by a few marks. can't i have smthing to make me happy for once? damn shitheads. they're gonna taste my drilling session starting tml. TOMORROW!!!!

i've been pulled into a new project by my ex-teacher. and i don't like it. because i'm nt paid for it, and i didn't volunteer for it even though it's interesting. i don't like e tot of supporting someone else's rise to fame. it pisses me off...

exams are coming... PSLE, P2 exams & sec 2 exams. i feel like i'm taking all 3....

Saturday, August 25, 2007

let this be

信頼 신망 доверие confiance

And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having
all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work.
Corinthians 9:8

it is a torture to wait... till nxt wk.
think of e ppl i wld have to tell when e results are announced.
e person i'm most afraid of disappointing wld be myself...

let this be a test that life has for me...

Thursday, August 23, 2007

i'm living with it.

i'm living with it.

doesn't mean i've accepted it. doesn't mean i've understood wad has happened.

i'll nvr noe..

i'm still living with it...

is there anything wrong with being friends with ur students? doesn't it work better that way? or am i "spoiling the mkt"?

u nvr noe wad advice they give is really gd for u, or whether there are other reasons to it.

and it sucks more because it all now depends on ur judgement alone...

i still don't mind being their friend...

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

& i think to myself

smtimes when i look @ some other ppl's blogs,(of course it wld be referring to ppl whom i TOTALLY am out of e league with) i'll feel like they're a bunch of naive, irritating, self absorbed pigs who love listing out what they did for e entire day. don't they have any thoughts abt e insanity of human kind? don't they have any reflections on e happenings ard e world? BIMBO

but i guess in e end... i'll be just as ugly as them

anyway, have u ever wondered why a bra is called a 胸罩?
i mean, den it shld be called breast mask in eng rite? masking a breast. woot


Monday, August 20, 2007

best --> worst

have been recording all my childhood videos into dvds & @ e same time trying to get my other projects, which i've unwillingly taken up, to finish asap.

i have this feeling tt e quality of my life has been going in a downward spiral

or maybe i'm just imaginin things. things haven been going well for me these past few wks, am just looking forward to wkends to chill with ppl...

e memories just seem to be mocking @ me... every single one of them, of what i've lost, or what this family has lost.

u keep thinking abt ifs when u life hits nadir. if the '97 economic crisis didn't happen... we wld still have a car, a factory, a less stressful life. den maybe i wldn't have landed myself in nyjc, maybe i wldn't have taken all those weird subjts...maybe...
if he wasn't born, maybe money wldn't be their top priority now...
maybe our lives wld be simpler, without these choices, without these risks tt we took, without these interests i naively seeked to fulfill.

but we still have to move on, work ur guts out each day & hope that all tt i'm doing now is for e sake of a "better" future, for e sake of her shutting her f'king mouth up abt going overseas for a tour or living in pte housing or her other god damn it irritating selfish & naive thoughts, e stupid moronic rosy pict she painted for herself.

everything feels so wrong now. it just feels very wrong.
maybe... i just needed desperately to go somewhere...

if i told u tt i missed u, wld it have made a difference to anyone of us?
i miss u...
i really do.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

非礼三女学生 教师坐牢挨鞭

he used to be someone i cld respect, someone good in maths, someone who was bullied by others because he was new in e sch...
teacher? friend? or just a stranger on e street...

Pub Date: 15/08/2007
Headline: 非礼三女学生 教师坐牢挨鞭
By: 林晓玲
Page Heading: 新加坡新闻





  法官下判时说,被告是初犯,他事后立刻认罪,让受害人免去上庭供证及受审问的过程。被告的心理报告显示,他患有反应性抑郁症(reactive depression),其中两项控状也是在他母亲病逝后的两星期犯下的。

Teacher gets jail, caning for molesting teenage students
Offender, 32, abused his position of trust, says judge
By Elena Chong, Court Correspondent

THE school teacher lured his 16-year-old student to his home on the pretext that they watch taped American basketball games together, but he ended up molesting her.
Yesterday, the 32-year-old father of one was packed off to jail for 19 months. With the teacher's wife sobbing in the background, the judge also ordered that the bespectacled man be given six strokes of the cane after he pleaded guilty to molesting the girl three times.
Seven other similar charges involving the victim and two other girls were considered. The teacher cannot be named in order to protect the identity of his victims.
The court heard that the teacher had invited the 16-year-old victim to his house in December 2005.
He is believed to have been working with her basketball team in school. But when she arrived, he claimed there was a 'blackout'. He then suggested that he try out a new massage technique he had read about on the Internet.
He told her to change into a T-shirt. She complied, but baulked and refused when he suggested that she remove her shorts.
The student lay face down while he applied an analgesic cream - meant to relieve pain - and started massaging her legs and thighs.
Suddenly, he pulled down her shorts and continued to massage her. The student reported that she was too afraid to protest.
After the massage, both of them headed for the sofa where he pulled her onto his lap and molested her by touching her breast and crotch.
Later when she tried changing back into her school uniform, he pulled down her blouse and touched her breast again.
A few months later, in March last year, the court heard that the teacher met the victim in a classroom after her basketball game and complained about her performance.
He then pulled her onto his lap, kissed her several times, making her cry. While leading her to the door, he hugged her and touched her right breast a few times.
Yesterday, the teacher's lawyer pleaded for a minimum sentence. She told the court he had been depressed and had to have treatment to deal with stress and the deaths of his parents. His mother died some two weeks before he molested the victim on Dec 9, 2005.
She also pointed out that he had written a letter of apology and made out a $5,000 cheque to the victim. But Assistant Public Prosecutor Eugene Kwang pressed for a deterrent sentence, saying this was a clear case of abuse of trust.
District Judge Wong Choon Ning agreed. She lambasted him for abusing his position of trust and said these were 'very serious crimes' against 'very young victims'.
Each charge carries a maximum jail term of up to two years or a fine or caning, or any two such punishments.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Happy 42nd Birthday My Island Home

how do u call a country ur home, when all around HDB blks, u have foriegners loitering around void decks speaking in a language so unknown, instead of retired grandparents enjoying their golden years, speaking in e familiar dialect that we've all grown to cherish.

how do u have a sense of ownership in a country, when buildings are being demolished on e pretext of urbanisation, & landmarks being forced to make way for our profitable IRs, where ur wonderful memories can only be found in faded photographs.

how can u see hope in a country, where local talents are easily neglected, replaced by cheaply imported foreign "talents" who can supposedly increase e competitive spirit of our fellow countryman which in turn will increase our "quality".

how can u entrust ur future in a government, whose sons & daughters have, with their poisonous forked tongue dismissed locals who r being displaced by the foreign talent policy as ppl who deserved it as a result of their incapability.

how do u love a country, a country that is increasingly filled with faces nt of ur own...

my gdi life

erm yar, i'm still working. i didn't get into a uni.

& u give me e it's e end of e world look. nt just u. everyone. every single one of u. frm teachers to neighbours.

is it really e end of e road....

Friday, August 10, 2007

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come

okay everybody. listen to my sister. SMILE SMILE SMILE if not you become senile (: wahahas.
siao. anyway, it's been nice knowing you, but my time has come, so goodbye for now.
and smile for me (:


Tuesday, August 07, 2007

i believe it is a chore to stay alive

i believe it is a unpleasant burden to want to live life to e fullest


there is no one i currently idolise now since narimiya is homo and kim jung hoon is a crybaby. new stars are popping up on screens like coco crunch. they all look e same to me. nice looks no talent minimal ability to do anything decent except to look cool. at least narimiya can do better... ok i still love nari.

i wonder how ms leong got herself into harvard. she must be a nerd. if nt, a damn smart kickass lady of e century.


let us drift apart. let us nt hold on to memories too. they'll become too heavy & sink my raft.

toot toot toot.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

What colour is your sky?

The teacher was discussing the various colours with her class. Included in the lesson were images of crayons, the rainbow, and various multi-faceted landscapes. She then asked her pupils the eternal question, "What colour is the sky?" Hands shot up all over the classroom. All of the students were eager to answer the question, and with the obvious predictable response.

One student in the back, staring out of the window, did not put up her hand. Naturally, she was called upon to answer the question, as it was suspected that she wasn't paying attention to the teacher's words.

"What colour is the sky?"

The student thought about her answer for a few moments, amidst a sea of giggles and very audible whispers. She continued to look out of the window, and to formulate a statement. After a few seconds, the response arrived.

"The sky is every colour. It is many shades of blue, but it's grey when there is a storm on the way. It can be red and orange and yellow when the sun rises and sets. It even turned green, just before the tornado destroyed our neighbour's house. At night, the sky is black, with polka dot stars. The sky can be every colour we want it to be, and every colour it needs to be."

The teacher looked shocked, at the rather unconventional answer, to what was thought to be the simplest of questions. The pupil was correct, of course. The sky is many different colours, and indeed can be any shade we can imagine. Unlike the canned and obvious idea of one blue colour fits all, the real world is much more complicated. It's also many levels more interesting.

When you are faced with a question that appears to have an obvious, and very conventional answer, that should be a signal to look much deeper. The issues involved may be many layered, and more complex than seen at first blush. Truly creative ideas arise when the obvious is seen from a different perspective. Things are rarely as simple as they seem at first glance.

Think like the pupil, who found every colour imaginable, when truly seeing the sky. The more ways you can think of when viewing a problem, means infinitely more solutions can be discovered and applied. The obvious answer of "blue" might work sometimes. You might see the vivid reds, yellows, and oranges of the sunset open before your very eyes. The seemingly obvious blue sky solution definitely won't work, amidst the multitude of grey tones, when it rains.

Always seek the less obvious answer when seeking to solve a problem.

What colour is your sky?

Wednesday, August 01, 2007


Wow... it is great hearing from so many of you. It warms my heart to read what is happening in your life.
Life is not about destination... it is a journey.... Shimin... don't worry, about not getting into Uni.... i understand it is discouraging coz i went through that too.... i applied 3 times and got rejected 3 times. hahahaha...
Everyone has different paths.... I am glad that you and Heiman chose to teach. coz it is a REALLY tough job.... you would have seen it in your relief in Cedar.
If you come to NIE, let me know, I might teach you again... hahaha...
As for Jasmine and heiman... have a fruitful time in your studies..
Joan... hope you got the overseas attachment.
Keep smiling and God bless! Stay in touch.
Yours always
Mr Tan


somehow, even though i've been nt in touch with my P6 teachers for a few years, this msg board created by our lovely IT savvy x-classmates has now been a great source of strength and comfort to me, especially now.
i wonder how everyone looks like more than 7 years from now. i wonder if everyone is still e same crazy ppl i noe, e childish tots & e insane ideas. if there's anything, u noe tt a teacher's influence and encouragement is more than enough to tell me life is worth living for another day... (even though he spelt my name wrongly... bahhhxxx)