Sunday, October 30, 2011

the happiness equation

Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.
- Ernest Hemingway, author and journalist, Nobel laureate (1899-1961)

Great men are always of a nature originally melancholy. -Aristotle

nope, not implying that i'm intelligent
i'm just saying. haha

been wanderlusting again
terrible. because i know it's not going to happen anytime soon :(
n the list keeps on growing
1. aurora broealis (Norway/Iceland)
2. NZ caravan
3. eastern europe, spain maybe (Oscar & Boris!)
4. Trans Siberian Rail
5. Middle East
6. Pamir Mountains
7. Ladakh
i think i'll die before i complete this :(

and we've reached and equilibrium in life
both of us
equi-distance from home
n i was lying in bed thinking
about how things have been
the people that u thought u were close to
were the once u have been neglecting all the time
and the only solution to this
seems to be for me to start working
save more
for u to stop
n rest
why can't we chase our dreams
and at the same time be rich too

Friday, October 28, 2011

too much angst

there's a thin line
between who you love
and who you think you love
that thin line
and seriously go take a good hard look at urself in the mirror
before u start condemning me

Thursday, October 27, 2011

n i bid thee farewell

can i love u without giving up loneliness?

because i'm so accustomed to it that i'm afraid
that e process of getting use to its presence is going to kill me again

it's like i'm already preparing myself for the worse even though nthing has happened
but then again
life has taught me never to expect anything to last forever
even family
things can just break down

the heart amplified does no one anygood

bad dreams
i think i keep too much anger inside
too many things bother me
but i just keep it pent up inside
n then everynight it explodes
in crazy nightmares

but at least life is slowly gettin back on track

it's all in the mind
all these anger, love, sadness
mad ness

Monday, October 24, 2011


that's good...

make sure he loves u more than u love him.

n i don't know if at that moment if this was the best sentence that sums up this 4 lettered game.

i wish u happyness, evol

we fall back to the vicious cycle

i think i'm going to crash
i think i'm going to crash
i think i'm going to crash
i think i'm going to crash
i think i'm going to crash
i think i'm going to crash

late nights
low/no motivation
it's like jc years on repeat
i can see my life going downhill
n i sit here n try to do wadever i can
i hate this
but e thing is i dun seem to be doing anything to change the situation
and that's why i sit here n feel fucked up
n emo
i'm such a terrible underachiever
no wonder i never succeed

Friday, October 21, 2011

counting down to the future

tumblr is a waste of my time
but i read it like a bible anyway.
i'm falling sick real soon.
and i'm counting down the days
to 10 nov
i think somewhere along the way
i stopped
liking u more than i should
things became a little clearer
and the image became two
n then i wondered if these feelings that i have
are a by product of what u give

how do u even fall in love with a person so far away

i want to see the world
but i'm guessing it'll be a while
before i can pick up that haversack
n go on trips alone again

Sunday, October 09, 2011

i'm so fking useless :((

pls b ok

Saturday, October 08, 2011







      是啊“佛是无处不在,无处不有的。”“一沙一尘一世界,一花一叶一菩提。”佛就汝心头深处,有一偈云”佛在灵山莫远求,灵山就在汝心头,人人有个灵山塔,好在灵山塔下修。”观 芸芸众生,为名而来,为利而往,只缘找不到自己正真的佛。求观音,拜佛祖,可知那亦不过是泥胎塑像,心中无佛何佛之有。诚然,只要心中有佛,佛便无处不 在,“我看人时人是佛,我观人时人是魔”此心亦佛亦魔,在乎你的一念罢了,如果你看人是佛,你就是佛,看人是魔,你就是魔,在真正的修行人眼中,哪怕是一 花一叶、一沙一尘,无不透露佛理禅机。

Friday, October 07, 2011

for u

i got it from u. and somehow it resonated with me. how u felt.

n i really wish u well. all the pain i think that u haf inside u. i really hope things will be ok for u.

Once upon a not-so-long-ago time, a sage advice was bestowed upon a loveless plebeian: Go out and socialise more, so that you can get a boyfriend.
What probably didn’t occur to the Great Sage of Love:
01. Not everyone needs a boyfriend at every stage in life like The Great Sage of Love.
02. Not everyone needs a boyfriend like The Great Sage of Love.
The plebeian returned the advice with a sly smile and a shrug. Oh, you poor clueless creature. You don’t know anything at all, do you?

Monday, October 03, 2011

so fking sick of all this projects

Saturday, October 01, 2011


i nearly tot i cld depend on u
but what both of us cldn't understand
was that my insecurities were a result of u
not because i can't trust u
or maybe it's exactly due to the fact that i cant totally trust u
u patience wore thin
as i kept pushing u to the edge
i don't know how much u know of me now
how much of it is misunderstood
how much of it is just me being blind to myself
but i guess i shld stop explaining


can never be given to u by someone else.
only u
can pull urself out of the hell hole.
again and again
maybe tt's something u haf to deal with.
it is a part of who u are
let ur face wear the smile that u've made for urself, not anyone else.
perfectly :)