Monday, December 27, 2010

pain should never be justified

there shld never be justifications for pain

because with the justification n reasons

u can only sink d.e.e.p.e.r

in ur own pain

u’ll be fine. u’re fine. smile.

that’s always e first step to +ve ness. u’ve done it before u can do it again, again, n again. for e ppl u love, n for urself. =)

to faith. to hope. to light

Saturday, December 25, 2010

round 2 fail

i wanted to tell u that i told u so

if anything, it's not that i didn't warn u to take ur time before u went into it again





but then again

maybe if i were in e same situation

i might nt have fared any better.

but still now i noe

love is not unconditional

love is not selfless




let's hope that this pain will be when u learn

because i've already said what i needed to say

Tuesday, December 21, 2010


I’d like to run away

From you,

But if you didn’t come

And find me…

I would die.

Shirley Bassey

wad u said was all that i needed to hear

X) thank u.

some part of me just told me that this is too good to be true.

because loneliness seems to be the only explanation

爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由

剩下的那些感动 能记得多久

Sunday, December 19, 2010






Thursday, December 16, 2010

i am confused.


randomness u simin


dun think this will last.

Monday, December 13, 2010


it takes more not to believe than to believe in the existance of supernatural, ie God.

i think today i saw another side of u

n then i realised

we're in truly different worlds

if u had believed that free will is given to men

n men do stray from the path that is destinied for them

then i would rather see it as i had the free will to choose

n i chose this path because i believed that i am here because of what i can see

and i am here because of every single person i've met

gd or bad

they've made me who i am


because i still give thanks

for every single thing and person in my life.

this is my destiny

and this is how i see it.


Wednesday, December 08, 2010

i need to let this go away.

i wish i had time to think abt why this is hurting me so much

but it is not helping me that my exams are this wk

n u fucking hell had to come in n apologise me n shove me with e truth.

which was nothing new

but still hurt me like hell


it is better to be in denial.

and dellusional

that's why i'm a fucking athetist.

i'm so good at running away from things.

i can only hope i wun screw this exams. n i hate u A. ilamurugan.
i really really hate u.

n i'm so glad i didn't cut myself because of u. because e scars are so not worth it for u.

Monday, December 06, 2010

but the truth is

i dun understand how this is just going to work out.

i hate myself. really

i dun understand what is going on

when all along when i tot i was in control


needs to check in to IMH. fuck.

i'm so useless. always feel so depressed.




madness max

but the truth is

i love u.

i always did.