Wednesday, August 31, 2011

sheep has no brains.

it wasn't jealousy fueled by feelings of unrequited love or wadever rubbish reasons that i cld concoct
thank god
really. thank god.
i thought it was
n the robot wasn't helping either.
by insisting that there's smthing wrong in my life
that screwed me up so bad

it was the feeling of confusion as a result of being left out of something that was so important of ur life

now u noe. it wldn't have made a diff if i told u.
u cant take sides. even if u did. u wld never be on my side
but i'm fine with it anyway.

for now.
i'm hoping that things will work out for u :)
it's abt time
i just want u to be happy.

Sunday, August 28, 2011


give me one gd reason, besides family
why i shld stay at hm
n bear e brunt of ur temper.

u just love to drive us up the wall.

Friday, August 26, 2011

if everything is Yours... I'm letting it go-- it was never mine to hold

these few days have been bad. in fact, it's a slow progression from bad to worse n maybe worst.
i hope it doesnt escalate.
this emotional roller coaster.
just hang on.
the ride will be over soon.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

the question u cldn't ans

“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.”

yes it's constantly on my head
what should've/could've been
but i thought things b/w us had been clear.always.
so why are these whisperings bugging me more than it should
n smtimes i wish u wld stop
bringing up those limitless possibilities
because i might just leave
shld e idea
become a reality
the different facades that i put up amazes me
fb, twitter, & 3 blogs
no wonder i go crazy

"u like this ambiguity
u like this chase
n u're good at pretending that it doesn't matter to u when it does."

i wonder. too

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

you have tangled with my heart and for that there is no forgiveness.

i hate routines
i hate that familiarity that u give me
that expectation that u instill in me
to wait
for u
because once it stops
it clings on to u
like those painful thorns
bleed... it says... keep bleeding
because i'm gone

Thursday, August 18, 2011

thank u

i'm just thankful that we ended up being the best of friends.
we're both funnier that way :)

thank u bro
for wadever we had n wadever will be