Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
i think i'm just a shade of blue.
that melanchonic blue,
that flat plain old boring melanchonic blue
that what u see is what u get blue
i think i'm like the different shades of blue
that playful blue with a tinge of turquoise with coral swirls
that bold blue, quick to be angered, quick to smile.
that sky blue, with the clamness of the sky, with puffy clouds drifting by
that blue with hues of red, like e setting of the sun, with that little bit of regret that a wonderful day has just gone by
i am that blue
that boring blue
that different shades of blue
Friday, April 23, 2010
I turned around and came back. Here.
Years later. I am not sorry I followed you. Only that I didn’t stay.
beyond this newfound inner peace n happiness
there is always this guilt, trapped somewhere, trying to break free
i needed to find a reason
to convince myself that what i did was right
no matter how selfish it was, i just didn't want to hurt anymore
so first i chose silence, then it slowly grew to hate.
it was as if i needed to convince myself of a reason to hate
ironically, i needed to find myself a reason to forgive too
a bagfull of contradictions
i bolted, i.n.s.t.i.n.c.t.i.v.e.l.y.
maybe, i just didn't want to see u
or maybe, it was to run away from the guilt of seeing u.
this is our story, this was our story, past tense.
it's a little sad
it's a little funny
how people can say they miss the times they spent together
but they don't miss the people in those times that was spent together.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
i don't know why...
but there's this fear,
when u talk abt the other half
there's this fear,
that one day, u wld leave me for the other half
there's this fear
that i would crash,
i would be standing by the side of the road, with a burning inferno
u leaving me. that is what i fear.
i don't know why.
The lift makes us all equals.
Business men, super models, rock stars, poor people, strange people, you and me.
We are all silent when confronted with each other.
Then we get out on our different floors (some higher, some lower) and carry on with our lives,
thankful we no longer have to deal with our own inhumanity.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
it took years for me to break free
i dont know if it was too long or too short
because somethings just can't be measured.
like pain. like bittersweet pain.
n till today, i do wonder sometimes, undeniably
if things cld haf turned out better for us.
but as we all know
there is always, no happily ever after.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
“Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.”
22 was filled with the littlest things
the little surprise celebration, the little gifts, e little messages, e random handshakes n smiles when ppl learnt that it was ur birthday.