sometimes, things don't go the way you want... i've seen through what was shown to me...
things are not what they seem to be... things are what they are....

btw... if u realised... the guy involved in the NKF scandal has a cute name... T.T Durai...
u get this T.T out of his name! fascinating isn't it? lol

i realised that it's always impossible to get 100% of everything... i mean down to the basics... if u ate a whole bar of chocolate, u wouldn't get the full satisfaction of sharing it with ur sibilings... yet if u shared it wth ur sibilings, u won't get enough to eat... >.<

i feel... unhappy...
because i am unable to let them be happy...
because people around me are unhappy because of money...
it's so shallow... so i made a shallow wish tt since the cause of everything seems to be money, them maybe to be rich seems to be the only solution...
it's so easy to say if... if i had this, if i had that... but the problem is if is just a stupid wish plus countless possbilities...

things i strongly believe in...
there is always a 2 hand situation... it just forms the foundation...
that i am a schizoprenic...
that i am who i am... i define my destiny.. i do not let others define my destiny, or rule over my way of life...

things i want to believe in...
that there are things such as forever friends...
that i will succeed
that i will not be too realistic nor too dreamy...

haha... crapping...

i will seek what i set out to find... i have almost found it... u are just there... so close.. & yet so far

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come