i hate going to sch...
this is written on impulse...

answers... this has been on my mind ever since that conversation... it was what i saw... admist the seemingly never ending reasons u gave... answers to life...
i was @ fault... i'm srry... it was wrong of me not to stand in ur shoes to look @ this issue fairly... we are both lost & looking for answers... u found urs, & it is through u that i think i found mine... for now..
it is impossible to ask this of u... to be philosophical w.o it linking to religion... because religion is life itself... religion is abt the way we live & think... how could i have assumed otherwise...
soul searching... to search inside.. & see lots of questions.. although for now i'm sure tt i'm a atheist, i'm not sure if i will be in the future because no one is sure what will happen tml...
who knows a miracle might happen... or that the end of days may come?
treasure... to treasure every moment with u & nt regret... if there is, then learn from mistakes & let go...
i rmb vividly of how my fav form teacher told us how he converted to chirstianity... he said tt when he was a kid, he didn't believe in the existence of god. so he made a pact with god, that if he got full marks for his maths test he wld believe in him. and he did... i believed it was coincidence, he believed in god ever since...
to each his own... to be in someone else's shoes... as much as we hate ppl promoting their faith, have we stepped in their shoes & thought of how they felt... it takes 2 hands to clap... i've found only one hand so far, where's the other hand?
ppl hold on to the believe tt there is a better tml
i still hold on to the believe that there will be something to prove this religion true... a miracle or anything... i'm still waiting...

maybe the ans i have now are not the ans i've been searching for... but for now i'm contented... i feel strength with a strong belief... maybe that was what you wld have wanted me to feel too... i'm glad that u've shared :)

there's always something more to the obvious... u know it's always there... most of time it involves self discovery & alot of heart breaks... but what matters is that we come out a stronger person...

i am strong... because i've found what i want... or this is what i choose to believe...
~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come