WHY SHOULD I CARE?

abt lep, abt pw?
and then give myself all the trouble, the misunderstanding, plus a whole lot of crap?
i can be happier w.o all these things weighing down on my mind
pissed... cus it's 4am, and i can't find kahhui's script... gahx
cus some ppl suck & i'm just trying to change the situation to benefit this group
maybe it's just because we have 2 different perspectives of the world, some choose the subtle way, i prefer the more direct & faster way

i do things on impulse...
it gives u a great feeling at first, and then later it sucks.... sometimes... most of the time...
things that u do on impulse makes u appear crazy...
i complain too much... i should just shut up and live with what i have
rite....
that shld be my resolution for the new year..
we're given personalities to compliment our weaknesses....
we try to hide who we truly are inside...
i hit out fast, cause i fear being made use of... i fear being manipulated by others...
i feel that there isnt' a need to suffer in silence
i feel that the world isn't fair, but if possible, then i want it to be fair, for myself, for others too
it's not just about being interested in the power struggle... it's about voicing out what i feel is wrong, what i feel should not be happening...
but sometimes i become too eager in expressing what i feel,
i put myself at a disadvantage
then i will force myself to go through an emotional rollercoaster
anger, guilt, shame etc
i am too emotional... bad...

why let urself fall if u saw it coming
i don't know...
do we have to go thru immense pain & suffering to see that to repeat our mistakes time and again is not worth the trouble, time and effort?
humans hate to be criticized, tt's why i can't say fuck u into ur face w.o feeling a tinge of guilt, regret or shame
every man for himself... or maybe not
i conclude that... after self reflection that i am in fact a hyopcrite... and a big fat one too!
*claps claps claps*
wth...
~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come