i thought i had found the answer today.... i thought....
maybe i didn't have to think deeper into anything, everything is as simple as what my friend has explained... why did i have to consider the fact that he was pitiful & didn't have any friends or whatever crap that i found out or have been told...
there is a reason for everything... there is a BIG FAT WARNING SIGN which i ignored... now i suffere the consequences...
it's not that bad actually... if i learnt something from this... if i know how to make a clean break...
this is something that i have been teaching my friend to do, but i ended up with the same problem and committing the same mistakes... ironic huh...
i think i know the way to walk... i'm just afraid that this will not turn out to be the right way, or that i might just go haywire..
just feel very depressed suddenly...
tiredd...
who cares when i cry, who cries when i die... hur hur... it rhymes but it's lame

SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP....

confiding is nvr easy... no one said it was, only you though it was easy, you said it like it's a piece of cake & you though trust is an easy thing too...
sometimes i feel that u are full of bullshit, full of promises but it's just empty talk.. i don't know how i got to know you...
you lament about the world, like it's against you.... the problem now is, who is pitting against who, the world against u? or u against the world?
i'm sick & tired of u and ur bullshit... i'm sick & tired of acting like nothing matters
i'm sick & tired of laughing & end up being called insane by the others...
fuck u... u are the cause of all this...fuck u....

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come