current status...: half dead...
it's freaky sometimes... to be able to know what the other person is thinking and what he or she might do... cus u never know how this ability to "see" might be used against u...
soemtimes u try to hard to understand the things around u, ending up complicating relationships than it already is...
i used to think that i could trust in you not to do what others did to me, but in the end u broke it... now i trust no more... nothing is as simple as it seems... there is never a thing as simple as what you see...
after saying all theses, it may be that it all ends up in one word, "choice". so what is this choice given to you... what do you do with it? to choose to believe in the surface of things & stay happy? afterall, ignorance is bliss... or to look deeper than the surface, and discover the ugly truths & hurt yourself in the process...
i used to form alot of conlcusions about people, now i can't be bothered... i just wanna stay neutral... even if i do hate the person, i'll try to forget the conclusions i came up with that person... or try to make these feelings dormant...
dormant... that's what i am feeling now...
i used to think that people who talk about love 24/7 have no life at all.... i still do...
i used to think that as we grow older and step into society, we'll meet alot more odd shapes and in different colours, shapes and sizes... i still do
i used to think guys are a weird speices who are mostly desperate to have a gf... i still do... for most ppl! MUAHAHA
did u find me contradicting... haha.. that's how life is, that's how we, as part of this whole "LIFE" is also affected...
i have yet to read the online bible... though the first part i read was interesting...
mind games... we play them all the time... or maybe i play them... that's why i feel jaded... it's sick i noe.... haix...but that's my mind... >.<
gd nitex... or rather...good morning...
i saw my frens nick... it's nice... harhar.. see ya

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come