Thursday, May 04, 2006

don't take it to heart, ur friend may nt know u tt well to judge....

an advice given to me by my lover of 12 years....

haha... i feel so inspired suddenly...

i haven been slping well recently... even though i've tried to sleep at 11pm... i end up lagging very badly behind in homework & my test is tml...
the only thing that makes me look forward to nxt week is vesak day... rite... i'm a pious buddhist and i love vesak day... o.o
i need gd fd to cheer me up...

we live in a grey grey world....
because we all know of this unwritten rule...
some things cannot be spoken, u cannot live this world with the expectation ppl to tell u their likes & dislikes, their beliefs or their stand...
there is no clear definition, there is no clear line drawn to set boundaries for u to manoeuver in...
& with everything so unclear, what are u to do?
what can u depend on, to navigate through this grey world? to survive complicated human relations? to know what is accepted by the society & what is not?
ms tan kept reiterating the fact that society is a game, either we play by the rules & rise throught the ranks, or we try to create our own & fail.
i actually thought her mentality quite warped initially...

life requires constant trial & errors, we fall, we cry, but we must never ever forget to stand up again after all this commotion.... second chances are never given & we cannot expect it to be given. it is created by us alone. if ppl fail to forgive or understand what u've done, then let it be. u cannot please everyone, nor do u let others live ur life for u.

it's tiring to please everyone, to expect everyone to be the same after an incident. expectations tired u out. we forget that ppl learn & grow frm pain. we always want explainations for things that change, why aren't u the same anymore? why are u so cold towards me? these things just don't have answers... some choose to distance themselves frm u, some just prefer to leave it to rot....

what makes u so sure...
that what u think is right? question urself & e ppl around u... this is what makes us grow... be not afraid to make errors, for it is then when we can grow from it. leave nthing to chance, because even if it means a little bit of hope, even if it means that 1% of uncertainty may mean failure & despair, never give up the fight, cus this is when miracles are created, and this is when we create them....

never ever be too sure....


& right, i sooooooooo deserve to have an asthma attack...and hopefully i should die frm it too rite? fuck thank u ma'm for ur sarcasm concern.

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I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

"Never Be The Same Again"MELANIE C

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