and i feel so much better after i bleed.....

he didn't understand
i didn't understand why he couldn't understand.

it's e same for other things i guess.... we're too restricted to our own scope & our mentality. we cannot understand why others cannot see things the way we see it. we cannot understand why some ppl just have to display extreme stupidity when they're actually quite smart. we cannot understand why some ppl are so damn ugly & stupid. we cannot understand why some ppl just love to piss ppl off.

this is the new race of humans. we fail to see....

in fact we've become increasingly blind to ppl ard us. we neglect their feelings, we take friendships for granted, we dun treasure companionship... because they are easier methods by which we can get things done our way w.o us having to think much abt the other party. divorces, complaints, blogging to satisfy our narcassistic mentalities & what have u. why do we have to think for the other party when we have a easier way out?

maybe tt's why we need more councillers & social workers ard... because we cannot even approach our best friend for advice, because we cannot even express to them what we feel inside. it's that sad, but it's so true.

i feel so angry all of a sudden

nxt time when u give advice, try thinking if u want e person to give u e same advice.
the reason ppl search for advice is when they're lost, when they don't know what to do, what to sacrifice. u think they wanna go ard telling everyone abt their inability to solve frenship problems & need someone to come in & help them? u think it's so fun asking ppl for help & having to beg them to convince u why our own ideas just can't work. to guide us thru all this shit. that's what friends are for rite? & this cliched sentence is is being forgotten by us.

i hate u...

it just shows how much we can depend on ppl when we're lost. u can't blame me for being a cynic or a pessimist if i see all this happening to me. that i've been on the verge of exasperation till i haf to turn to ppl i'm nt even close to to get advice. that i've been close to tears everytime i try to get my point across, only to laugh at myself later for even trying to think that i could depend on those ppl whom i call "friends".

attending schools & dealing with ppl has become more of a routine rather than a yearning to meet more ppl. mask & mask & mask & mask of superficiality....it's no different frm a masquerade, w/o the victorian styled gowns....


The true way to be humble is not to stoop until you are smaller than yourself, but to stand at your real height against some higher nature that will show you what the real smallness of your greatness is.
Phillips Brooks