i rmb once tellin a friend that open communication is the key to a healthy relationship... be it guy, girl homosexual wadever...
because once the channel of comunication is open, misunderstandings won't occur, if they do, then not that frequently...

& now i find myself more unwilling to explain myself when misunderstandings occur...
even though i know how explanations will make things a whole lot better, will reaffirm a relationship, will clear suspicions...

i think i used to be more vocal in this sense... because i always saw the reason to faulty relationships as being not able to maintain an active communication channel & thus resulting in misunderstandings, misunderstandings & more misunderstandings...

maybe it's too tiring to be reaffirmed repeatly... cus what u have left is only ur insecurities... what others give are only superficial... something to just build up ur facade...

or maybe it's because my social circle has shrunk... that i tend not to face that much problems as i used to in the past... that there are things i choose not to care, that maintaining equality doesn't matter that much to me because no matter how hard i try, the problem is always there...
some things didn't change no matter how hard u try, because of time, because of pride...
since by saying so much, u only get so little in return, why say it? if all these usually puts u at a disadvantage... why bother to even make ur stand? it wasn't needed in the first place....

maybe i'm starting to learn... that as we grow older, many things are left unsaid... if u understand, then gd for u, if u misunderstand it, than too bad... u're expected to know... they think u'll know...
maybe that is the unwritten rule of adults.... maybe that is the rule of the society we have to live in... maybe it's like history... where maintainin neutrality is the best solution to all things...

s.i.l.e.n.t

today... society told me this... there isn't a need for u to speak, there isn't need for u to explain, we would have known... you should have known....