because she finds it unable to be who she is around the teacher. she would be probably someone who thinks she really is a good person, she really has a lot of talents and intelligence, and she's afraid the teacher can't see it, and she'll drown in the insignificance of the class, of the classrooms. furthermore, who doesnt look up to teachers? they teach yo and mark your work for gods sake. knowing they like you makes you feel more at ease when you do their homework. you dont blame them for marking you lowly just because, "the teacher dont like me." because the teacher DOES like you, you know you must have done something wrong and will work harder. all these doubts, anxiousness... they're all insecurities...

quoted from faith...

if i had a link to the blog of all exco members' blog, i'm sure everyone will be hurling vulgarities @ the LEP teachers today.. haha.. how amazing. i'm amused. do i look like her pet? i feel that as the year progesses, my working realtionship with teachers has been reduced to basic manipulation. believe me.... i would very much hate to be labelled as a teacher's pet... i dun aim to be one... i prefer conquering the world... HURHUR

a good leader is also a good follower... i'm nt a good follower, thus not a good leader. my friend said i'm a perfectionist... i guess i'm aware, & i willingly suffer the consequences of it. the late nights, the undue stress... because i know that the satisfaction gained is immense if i put in my heart & soul... i aim for perfection... fully aware that total perfection is impossible to achieve but it shall remain my dream...

ppl drift apart... maybe that's what they call be fate, it bonds & it breaks... u can be so close to a person & then all of a sudden, or without any reason at all, u start drifting apart, like me & alice, me & geraldine... there are a few more i can think of... that's life, to embrace things that come to u with an open heart cus u never know what will last or won't last. take things easy.... i really have to thank people who taught me this skill... why choose to be sad when u can be happy? no one benefits more from the happiness then u do....

muching on a century egg happily, well aware of the fact that it might be dipped in horse urine for a hundred days.. shall egg hard boiled egg later

lessons i learnt today after being mocked for lack of common sense & other insulting terms... i'm a receptive person baby c'mon fling me some more of those... i'll take it as a challange to test my threshold for crap
1. in a power struggle, aim for the top position cus u can always rely on ur subordinates to cover ur ass
2. teachers are humans too
3. i have an affinity with lousy chairmans...
4. that guys are desperate & desperate guys get on ur nerves so avoid @ all costs
5. that a person who accuses others for lack of common sense apparently lacks tt as well
6. that ltc trainings w0rks in this sort of situations
7. that ltc instructors should continue to maintain & uphold the prestige of the hierarcy system no matter how morbid it may be... it trains them to cope with these situations

cooking supper...hehe.. at like 1.21am... tadadada! presenting to you, the most unhealthy food u have ever seen, 2 eggs with pig bone marrow... this is the key to maintaining sanity the next day! HAHAHA..... i shall die of high chelestrol

enjoyment cut short by my stupid lamo mother who is whining to me to sleep early... damnit...
suckers....
am behaving childishly but dun care

tml open hse, shall look for cedarians... nyjc can go kiss my ass....
this is starting to get cranky... must be the food... it's making me fall ill... haha! good, just as planned... i love eating my favourite food, which always happens to be half cooked so i'll end up getting food poisoning... LOLx....

want to play maplestory but mummy is stupid...gahgah... both of us are pissed... due to miscommunication.. can't be bothered... sometimes i know the reason... just that i can't accept it... must be my inreceptiveness (is dere such a word?)... lolx...

if i wanna write somemore, i will sound like a bimbo who receites what she does daily... but i dun care cus it's abt my darling blue... i made her wait for 4hrs in orchard & go hungry cus she lost her purse... i'm so srry... i learnt alot today... expecting the unexpected, kept updated about my other scholar friends. their BGRs, i'm amazed... she told me about her personal stuff as well, i didn't know what to say.... i really feel like hitting myself when it comes to this kind of stuff, cus i really won't know what to say... i can't comfort u cus i would end up sounding stupid, but i don't dare ask u more for fear of bringing up what u plan to leave behind.... i.am.a.ass.hole...

i'm so srry so so srry......
goodnitex... miss u lots...
NY rots
think of logs
make me write blog
lame... it rhymes

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come