i like zhixin's reflection on her blog... it is thought provoking...

but i guess i've immuned myself to this line : ppl do change...
maybe it's because i don't care, or maybe it's because i do care so i dun wanna face it...

and sometimes it freaks it out alot/makes me very very depressed when i feel that i've changed... let's say... for the worse...

resolutions:
1. shutup
2. act dumb
3. dun comment on ppl
4. stop getting high
5. stop screaming...

yes i know... all these can be summarise in 2 words... shut up...

we have our own ways with dealing with ppl, some choose silence as a form of defiance, some choose a sudden outburst of emotions, go gah gah & then becoming "normal" to continue hiding who they want to hide...

i still don't understand faith's theory that "Every time you are emotional, you are your strongest and your weakest." because i know that since my 2 to 3 emtional outburst in nyjc has been my greatest shame & is something i wish to forget & something i do not wish to go through again... yes it is painful... trust me on that...

my tuition teacher believes that no one should wear a mask to hide his her true self...
yet i feel that to not wear a mask makes urself very very vulnerable, because that is who you are, and that should something bad happen that is directed at ur personality, you still have somewhere to hide... it never pays to be too frank because admit it, most ppl can't take criticisms, few ppl likes to go around saying sorry because we're too concerned about our image...

if anything goes wrong in relationship or if we happen to drift apart, the only thing i can say is that we're never meant to be...

the memories with you, i've always cherished... even till today...