mood: depressed
msn nick: sinking into the depths of depression
i feel it coming back gradually, i'm tryin to stop it but my attempts so far have seemed futile, for it was either a feigned defeat or it manage to keep out of sight, i didn't really care...
i don't know why you are touring yourself, is this and act of selfishness? like what they others always say? no it's not, i know it's dispair, but what drives u to despair? i know you have tried to leave the shadows behind but they keep coming back.... they're coming back to my mind as well... i feel so lost... i do not understand... perserverance is what that pushes u on, even after you fall, ur experience is worse then mine, you keep telling me to be strong, to be happy, but what about you? you care so much about other's happiness until u are neglecting your own aren't you? why do you fear the shadow when you know here in a new environment, you have already found ppl who understands, who are so willing to guide you when you're lost...
the fear is taking over me, i need to pen this down.. it may even sound stupid later on but i don't care... for those who feel weak, pls live on, death is never equals to that peace, death solves no problems........
fuck fuck fuck....... i hate everything........
the ironies......... shit....... i'm crying.......
~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come
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