Sunday, April 17, 2005

i'm so glad u cared...

pessimist r secretly optimist because its human nature to hope for the best, but pessimist don't say it out because they're afraid of disappointment

Blogs- their impact on the world.
Blogs have definitely created a momentous impact on the world. Almost every teenager has a blog, and even adults have caught on the rising trend of it. What is a blog? It is an online journal where a person can write his or her thoughts down. So why are blogs so popular? Wouldn’t a person want to keep his or her journal a private secret? After all, journals are meant to be a private source of confessions. What blogs have become is evident- they are no longer mere scraps of a person’s sentiments, but a platform for people to dare to write what they would usually keep within the locked perimeters of their minds.

haha.. ok... the first few paragraphs r quoted from faith... oh well.. ppl who are really gd in languages can truly express wad they feel, i suck when it comes to handling language, that's why i resort to just scolding vulgarities to express what i feel is unfair in this world. i guess that's the thing that seperate people who are of higher thinking order from people who don't bother to think much.
sometimes i regret giving my blog address to my friends... i hate losing my privacy to people whom i know, cus it's like u're showing them what's ur weakness inside. i don't have a private diary, used to but didn't bother to keep it neat so i had to resort to using computers...
but sometimes i guess it's to my advantage as well, i can use it to direct my anger and frustration at people whom i feel need to go get a life. unless they're so stupid as to not to get it, then it ain't my business no more.. i'm so tired, trying to get people to let go when i'm not even letting go of my past. i'm so tired, when people keep convincing themselves that they are shit when they're not. what can i say to make them see that they're not? maybe i just lack this ability to convince... but as a friend, i'm a total failure cus instead of helping u, i seem to be aggravating the situation. the guilt drains me & i don't dare to face life any more. i wonder how i managed to survive sec 2's hell but than i guess maybe mine wasn't as bad as urs, and maybe my friends were there for me as well... haix... maybe i'm not capable to give u more than what is expected of me...
i'm crapping... i'm starting to get depressed... i know the scholars will be there... they always have been... thanks junjie...haha... juz wanna go out & chill.. miss cedar miss cedar... urgh

(2005-04-17 12:30:45) 鄙视罄翔
小孩,什么时候在线呢??我一般都不在线啦,别人在帮我挂QQ而已。。哈哈,但我现在在!!

have u ever felt that u've been thrown in this situation where u don't know whether u should move on or stay behind & live in the wonderful memories. i guess i need security, one that nanyang has failed to give me so far. have a few close friends here & there but i've this feeling that something is lacking.. cedar was everything to me, i found love & friendship, i found security, i had this cedar family watching over me where ever i went. then we were just forced to jump from this platform straight into to ocean, where danger lurks in the shadow... u're expected to swim to the other platform which is located @ some god forsaken place. just when u thought u've reached it, u suddenly realised that it was just a mirage, by then u're out of breath, tired, struggling to stay afloat with the waves washing u to somewhere.. what would u do? perservere and try swimming again to the place where u first wanted to go? or back a hasty retreat & return to where u once came from? i chose the latter... cus i felt the black hole consuming my thoughts, i felt despair... i needed love...
guess all this sounds stupid... but i'm just glad to have u there...

RiVerDance,tHe HeaRt of alL tHings ceLtic, takemehigh~lEtmEsOaR!
~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come

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