i guess it's part of life, to feel guilty once in a while for not being able to keep up with e friends who meant something to u, slowing drifting away. or maybe the truth is tt we've already made e choice a long time ago nt to keep up, & just let it drift away. just like tt...

it's difficult for me to keep up with e updates of everyone's live, yet if i don't i will always feel e distance grow, staring at e distance b/w us, i have nthing to push me forward but everything to hold me back.

"i've read ur blog," seems to be e only link to update u of ur friend. we don't call each other no more, we don't bother to send a msg to ask. we read e blog, e superficial, goody two shoes i wanna whine blog tt we use to pour our emotions out for various purposes.

and if like teaching in a classroom e size of 3 classrooms and trying to get their attention against 2 other screaming classes is nt enough, we were kind enough to be rewarded with lvl meetings & meaningless contact time. i heard other rts in other schs were spared. i can't whine, because i was given a chance
now as teachers whine & get so tired after meetings, u wonder if they're as alturistic as they appear to be....