hmmm....
remember the days....
(it was a years ago... if i didn't rmb wrongly, where i crticized lee guo huang for being a crazy emcee and was behaving like a man with his screws lose...)

utterly disgusted with traditional jazzed up songs.... it spoils the spirit... it sounds so stupid....
traditional songs not only encompass the lyrics alone but also the tune... that's the spirit.... and i hate ppl who change it... but that's juz so singapore.... to "think out of the box"... it's ridiculous and lame
and every year with have emcees screaming and screaming at the crowd trying to bring the crowd to the very high spirits.... just like my sis said... so corny.... den u have the boring kallang wave.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... my singapore.....
and the "live" chior lip syncs.... so alive... i feel like screaming at them....

i had a very terrible dream.... it shows how addicted i am to this crap already.... i have sworn to myself to stop this... i juz hope this last...... sinner...sinner....

hmm... so am i supposed to write abt my experience in the camp?
the camp was.... let's see....
"fun" "nice" "wonderful"
i noe i noe....
haix.... but i guess the good thing is the hobbits were the best kayaking team and athough it was very fun... i mean it... that was the most fun activity of the camp... it tested my limits, prevented me from screaming at the girl in front for being a shame to the female population, and i had experienced a storm at sea.... i just love the water.... i love the skies as well.. blue...

the LOTR themed night walk was nice as well... haha... because it was organized by hozefa and because there was special meaning behind this night walk... it was done in memory of a teacher who passed away...
i dun noe... it showed me that nanyang was capable of treating us like adults and doing smthing that was not lame....

and i met 2 nice indonesian friends... andara and hilario...

so tt is what i've gained from the camp.... besides that... my mentality was being turned down to the basic functions of eating, sleeping and trying to look interested... (extracted from the simin's basic survival to camps)

feel guilty for nt being able to be with my fiancee during the camp... or else i would have shot them down with my sacarsm... all thanks to the circle and square in my class, i've trained my gift of the gap... hey fiancee if u're reading this, tell me if anyone bullies u, i'll just kick their ass! trust me... i'll be aiming them at the sun so tt they'll hopefully disintegrate out of this world...

i hate ppl who bully others.... like they seriously have nthing else to do then picking on ppl they don't like or who don't fit into their character profile... but... come to think of it.... i haven't been a nice human being as well... i admire ppl who don't really hold grudges.... these are the ppl who can truly let go.... cus they hold on to nothing... the world to them seems so beautiful...

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come