i cannot control emotional outburst.
like what i said just now, i just really didn't expect it to come out of myself at all.
yes u're right, i am in every sense a attention seeking bitch, are these are the moments of attention which i seek should i lose control of myself.
talk abt carnal lust. lol. this is what i'm faced with everyday.
n sure,after that i enjoy the moment on replay too
i would always go back later to relieve the moment, but never that pleasure that came with that moment . it's just this overwhelming guilt that consumes me because i always take things twice as hard that wad NORMAL ppl wld usually do.
and every single once in a while, the bitches and sluts lose control, and come out in bloody zig zagged lines on the back of their hands.
sure, i enjoy the moment. i always do. thank u for pointing it out to me.
if there's anything that comforts you, u are not at the losing end.
my debt is always paid in blood and self hatred.