once every few months
i have to deal with very bad security and esteem issues.
like suddenly i'll think e whole world hates me
like suddenly i'll feel like i'm not being loved
like suddenly i'll feel that u're ignoring me
n i'll do crazy crazy things
n i'll get jealous like i'm fucking drinking a reservoir of vinegar.
n i'll whine that nobody loves me n nobody understands me.
i know ultimately this will be part of a phase, in fact, i face in like once every few months
so why am i still so UNSURE???
i am such a bastard.
the weeks are getting longerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr