it's e way u nonchalantly say sorry and shrug if off
i tot u've changed
suddenly i realised, all these while, it wasn't abt anyone else.
it wasn't abt making friends nor was is it about making someone's day
everything was just about u
how u felt, how u cld make urself better, how everything cld benefit u
i noe everyone has this feeling, self before others. but u brought it more to the extreme.
e world centered ard u.
but at least now i think i know, who u truly are.
and that my instincts abt u were right all along.
u can never be true to anyone but urself
so don't complain.
but guess what i'm no longer afraid of u. i'm sure, that i'm so much stronger to deal with u now.
i've been meaning to look into religion again. buddhism to be exact. there's so much i want to know abt e philosophy and how wrongly it's been interpreted by fanatics.
maybe i just wanted to be at peace after u left.