unspoken

and u tot i didn't felt guilty, u tot it was funny....

it'll be hard, living w/o e things tt have been with me since i was born. they say tt ur greatest fears are always unspoken, i guess tt's e same with me. i dun really wanna think too far off. with life like tt, we'll just have to make do with wad we have each day & live each day as it is, hoping it doesn't get worse, & maybe praying tt it might get better.

as my fiancee laments about how she does threesome with me & how much she'll miss NY. i guess this is e only place i won't miss, & am really glad i'm over & done with it. e past few wks had made me more sure of tt. i won't miss e tchers, i won't miss my classmates. i won't miss e sch (it wasn't even conducive for me to study in e first place) maybe my impression of cedar is warped, maybe wad i've went thru has twisted my memories of cedar & make it seem so much better. who noes, who cares.

it's like e days are getting worse, just tt e reality hasn't sunk in cus i didn't want to think too much bout it during As. it's difficult to get someone to look at things frm e same perspective. it's difficult to get someone to understand e things tt u can't say. if u wanna say tt each sch has their own spirit, den ny's was a cultural shock for me. even till now. though now i still have close friends, some things just don't change. they just can't....

updates on my life

yes, unlike most ppl who have revived their blog after suffering frm e boredom of post exam blues, i do nt update my blog as often as i want to. i tried writing but i gave up halfway too. i've been going out almost everyday, trying to keep in touch with ppl frm JC (yeah i noe we just graduated), & sec sch as they walk ard preparing for prom & i prepare my office wear.

we do lame stuff like borrowing haogay's phone to send gay sms to his guy classmates and freak them out. we take lame picts and scream at how incompetent haogay is with electronic gadgets only to find out tt it's nt really his fault either. or maybe just walk ard looking at weird revealing prom clothes & taunting my fren to wear it, or bringing my brother all e way to pasir ris escape themepark just to welcome rain when we were going to enter e themepark.

so tt's how my life was like during e past few wks after As. no plans abt e future i guess. just waiting and succumbing to materialistic desires & working hard to get it. i want e Z610i phone which i have ranting & raving & dreaming about since As. i want to upgrade my com. i want money

wadever lar. i'm so tired now. nite.

the long path to success

~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come

my post exam life

is boring....

ok it's nt really tt boring. i've been going out everyday, walking ard in shopping malls with frens looking for office wear. i just bought lipstick today too. i look dumb. i love echizen lots! lolx

there's alot of things u aren't sure. wad life will be half a year later, whether we'll be seeing more or less or each other. there's just this uncertainty there, this worry buried deep inside tt somethings might just go wrong... very wrong.

but as much as we worry bout Us, bout getting a temp job to feed our materialistic fetishes, life still goes on as we wait eagerly for friends to finish their As before we pounce on them & drag them out to chill. we see all this once familiar faces, adorned with new haircuts, different size frames, or maybe just the same old face that once made u laugh and cried with u. those friendly hugs & crazy laughters easily found their way back when we gather with this bunch of ppl we've lost contact with during e mugging period. there's so much things u wanna update each other, this cute guy, tt person's bf blah blah blah. but i guess all these things doesn't really matter.

it'a a race to keep on going and living with life. we just happened to have our little water break before we continue on e infinite journey till it ends. we don't know what this route will be like, where will it lead. we move on... till then, i'm just happy to have u back.

simin loves backrow, echizen, cedar, and ny buddys. XD

DAMN U As!

the end of As also means BYE BYE UNI!!

HECK LAR!

MY STUPID FUCKING COMPUTER IS NOT WORKING. I AM USING THIS LOUSY COMPUTER THAT WORKS AT SNAIL SPEED!!! I HATE SYSTEM RESTORE U SHIT HEAD!!!

I WANT MY COMPUTER TO WORK!!!!!

SHOULD I WORK OR SHOULD I NOT WORK? SHOULD I? SHOULD I NOT? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

死而复生

after facing bouts of depression & getting high i just hope all this will end....
soon....

20/11/2006

The Way Home

With the unexpected box-office success of her second feature, Lee Jeong-hyang has now earned the title of Korea's most commercially successful woman director. Although the widespread popularity of her debut film Art Museum by the Zoo can in part be attributed to star actress Shim Eun-ha, her latest work The Way Home offers nothing more in star power than a 7-year old boy and a 77-year old grandmother. Based purely on its strengths in storytelling this film has become a popular and beloved feature in its home country.

The Way Home opens with a single mother who, faced with financial troubles, decides to leave her seven-year son with his mute grandmother in the countryside. Having run away from home at a young age, the mother introduces the two to each other for the first time and then leaves for the city. The boy is furious at this upheaval in his life, taking out his frustrations by misbehaving and making wild demands of his grandmother.

The film was shot in a remote village of only eight households, with amateur actors taking all the roles save that of the young boy. Kim Ul-boon, the woman who plays the grandmother, was scouted from another village when the director spotted her walking down the road. Having never seen a movie before in her life, she nonetheless proved to be a talented and devoted actress, and she has since become a minor celebrity.

Apart from being a mainly personal story, The Way Home also highlights the world of difference that exists between rural and urban Korea. Without being preachy, the film manages to highlight some of the aspects of rural life that have been lost in the course of development. The film's main strength remains its storytelling, however. Although the plot contains few surprises, it develops in such natural fashion that it doesn't feel like a story is being told at all.

I admit I was shocked to see how well this film performed at the box-office when it was released in April. When you watch it, it seems to contain not a trace of commercialism, yet it managed to outperform both Hollywood blockbusters and star-studded local movies to land at #1 in the box-office. A small chunk of hope for those who support modestly-packaged films.

credits to korean movie review

김정훈 金桢勋

iWeekly Magazine (Singapore) 2 Nov 2006 {Translation}


This is part of a larger article on Strawberry Generation celebrities, featuring Yoon Eun Hye, Joo Ji Hoon, Kim Jeong Hoon, Edison Chen and Charlene Chai. It basically seeks to spotlight a generation of youths born in/after the 80s, and the characteristics of this Strawberry Generation.

Overview:
When you mention the Strawberry Generation, the first reaction of people around you would be to frown.
The Strawberry Generation: Encompasses the Generation Y youths born after the 80s.
Strawberry traits: Fresh, radiant appearances, sweet personalities tinged with sourness. Maturing in the greenhouse, unable to withstand torture, requires care in order to grow.
The Strawberry Generation in the eyes of many: self-centred, unrealistic, too weak to withstand blows, accustomed to a pampered upbringing.
However, there are always two sides to all things. They are simultaneously courageous, unafraid to express themselves, pursue life’s luxuries, full of creativity, passionate about freedom.
Unripe strawberries, nevertheless less palatable due to their sourness, aren’t something everyone can accept; only a high-pressure environment will cause people to mature quickly, and one such environment is the entertainment business.
To observe the Strawberry idols who have been steeped in the entertainment business for years, it’s not hard to realize that even strawberries ripen one day.

Kim Jeong Hoon
Birth date: 20 January 1980

Strawberry Traits
1. The Genius Celebrity
The average person’s IQ is between 90-100, while Kim Jeong Hoon’s IQ is as high as 145. With consistently outstanding grades since he was a young boy, he obtained 380 points in high school which ranked him 20th at the national level, gaining entry into Seoul University’s medical school, majoring in dentistry. He was also the national top student for chemistry that year. As a child, his family background wasn’t ideal, and his parents spent their days borrowing and returning money. This contributed to his learning to be very sensitive to people’s emotions and behaviour.

2. Troubled Young Man
While Kim Jeong Hoon’s IQ is superior to others’, his EQ pales somewhat in comparison. In his second year of high school, his physics grades were suffering, which led the usually-academically-excellent Jeong Hoon to finally slip into depression. “Actually I’m unable to pinpoint the real reason, just felt bored, the time spent sitting idly just got longer and longer. Even going to the hospital was useless.” With his family’s support, the gloom lifted half a year later. After becoming a singer, unable to withstand the pressure of balancing both university studies and career at the same time, the depression started to set in again. Finally, he chose to quit school and switch to studying acting.

3. Playful Generation
He describes the Kim Jeong Hoon of high school days as “a learning machine”. Upon entering university, he began a different kind of life. He became enamoured of foosball (table soccer), and one of the things that made him happy at that point in time was when schoolmates said, “Your foosball prowess is universally acknowledged.”
Besides, he is also fond of online gaming, and likes to play multiplayer online LAN games under pseudonyms. In order to come up with impressive monikers, he spends long hours poring over books in search of inspiration. The most important items he keeps in his bag are comic books (manga). ‘Redmoon’, a Korean comic in which a boy saves the Earth, drew tears while he was reading it. More recently, he’s become fascinated with a Japanese comic, ‘Death Diary’.

Strawberry Milestones
1. Acting in drag
In high school, Kim Jeong Hoon joined a student recreation committee event in which he performed in drag (crossdressed). This caused a huge wave of reaction in the school. He recalls bemusedly of himself, “In terms of sex appeal, I’m afraid even Madonna has to step aside.”

After the performance, he even received quite a few love letters from neighbouring girls’ schools and became popular in school. He also began to have an interest in performing.

2. Model group debut
He joined a singing contest in 1998, but was ousted in the finals. This didn’t prevent him from becoming a star, however. After being talent-scouted by a manager/agent, he underwent a hellish stint of vocal training, and formed U.N. with Choi Jung Won in 1999. They became a prominent model singing group. In 2005, however, they went their separate ways, citing “different musical ideals” as the reason.

3. A change of luck
Flying solo, Kim Jeong Hoon acted in a number of television dramas, but in negligible supporting roles. Until he accepted the role in Goong, his acting career was rather lackluster and he thus considered going on a hiatus from entertainment and furthering his studies abroad. Who knew that at this opportune moment, his role in Goong resurrected his career. The resulting white-hot popularity has seen him ceaselessly promoting in Japan and Taiwan. Striking while the iron is hot, he has also released a new album, Best.

Strawberry Ripeness Meter: 3 and a half out of 5 strawberries
The Strawberry trait of being good-looking but easily destroyed is apparent with Kim Jeong Hoon, as is the saying that genius is never happy. However, it is due to this very melancholy quality that he is able to flesh out the character of Yul. The troubled look in his eyes and gentle yet deep aura, have swept thousands of young girls off their feet.

For Kim Jeong Hoon, who has been in the business for 7 years, the cliché “Without going through a harsh bonechilling winter, you will never get to smell the fragrance of plum blossoms”, sums it up aptly.

EXTRA!
The Four Nos
Do not judge Strawberry idols by the usual standards. Odd taboos and logic evidence the thought processes and style of these new celebrities.

1. No exposing of his forehead. Of his features, Kim Jeong Hoon is most satisfied with his eyes, and least with his forehead. He thinks that his forehead is too big, making him look very soft and immature. So no matter what hairstyle he uses, he never fails to cover it up with a fringe.

2. No phototaking from a low angle: Besides his forehead, Kim Jeong Hoon also dislikes his nostrils as he thinks that they are too big. So in most cases, he dislikes being photographed from a low angle.

3. No describing him as cute: When he was little, his older sister once dressed him up as a little girl and took him out, even photographing him for memory. This memory haunts him. He dislikes people praising him as ‘cute’, much in the same way females would prefer not to be described as ‘strapping’.

4. No asking about his withdrawal from school: Old dreams do not need to be remembered. When he withdrew from the famous Seoul University, he felt very stressed. He once revealed in an interview that he was most afraid of the media pursuing this matter. Catapulting to fame, however, caused the media to reopen the case and ask about it umpteen times, and even if he isn’t sick of talking about it, we’ll be sick of hearing about it.

** Some trivia of especial note to those who are also Edison Chen fans: From this article, I discovered that he and Edison Chen share the same birth date!

Translated by MissusGabriel

taken from kimjunghoonlub

it's like having so much hope & den having to deal with this big blow....
i can't fail. i won't fail. i dun noe what i could have done more. i did my best.

u're so tired u dun feel like moving on....

慌