life

life has it this way
that nothing is fair
but u can't compare
for everything has its time n place
and it may not be now
but the future is still
yours
to
spend

so keep dreaming
n keep them alive
n life will have it
that it will be urs some day =)

control

we don't blog anymore
maybe our bf's have become our daily diaries
there's nthing to put into words

i need to let what's in my head bleed
out
i keep too much shit inside

what if there's smthing wrong with me
den i wldnt want a child to be like me
to have bitch fits and crazy self harm tendencies

yet everyone says it like it can be controlled
i tried
i walked away
then u came n slammed the cup
that's when i lost control

i hate life like this
i hate wondering if my emotions are a result of my inability to manage anger
or isit a result of my fucked up hormones
either way it's still e same isnt it
the inability to manage urself
to remain calm.

so fucking fail.