撑伞挡风遮雨记

u asked if i felt any pain

u asked if i was in shock

no, i said flatly.

it didn't hurt a teeny weeny bit. i'm fine with it.

oh. u're boring leh. hahaha.

fuck u.

and from that moment onwards. i knew that somethings can never be the same again.

i didn't noe...that with my heart bleeding like that, i cld still conjure a lie...

有时候自 己 站在那，为你撑伞挡风遮雨，很累。

你却把脸上的泪水当成天上的雨水，理所当然。恨。

my birthday wish

i shall spend my 22nd birthday

cursing and swearing at anything or everything

and then hate everything n everyone

and then cry

and then whine abt my pathetic life

amd cut myself n die.

i shall die hating my stupid rmmate for bugging me till now to have a hearttoheart talk with her. fuck u. i dun wan to see ur heart n i dun wan to talk to ur heart.

i shall die hating lesbians.

i shall die a virgin.

i shall die screaming at this OH SO UNFAIR WORLD.

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hahaha. that would really really be stupid n retarded.

happy 22nd birthday simin, i hope u'll grow up soon =)

MORBID SHIT HAHAHAHA

cus i just dun noe what to do anymore.

a few days ago

i was given a situation.

with no problem, no resolution.

just a fucking situation.

what else could i do? i wasn't given a choice. i couldn't take a stand. i couldn't think.

-blank-

i cried, cus i'm helpless. i'm angry because i can't blame anyone, cus i'm helpess.

cus i just dun noe what to do anymore.

因为不曾拥有

因为不曾拥有，比曾经拥有，少了那点点的心痛和遗憾。

所以，所以， 一直要让自己是个过客。因为过客无牵挂，过客少了那丰富感情。

过客不会留念，不会放不下。


就如徐志摩所说的，我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩

多潇洒。。。

love =)

today was epic X)

it's always great to see ur frens do well in the things they set out to do.

u're always my source of inspiration, love =)

this is a reminder for u to grow up.

i am unhappy because i want things to go my way

i am unhappy because i want things to go my way

i am unhappy because i cannot accept what others say about me

solution

i cannot want things to go my way

i cannot expect other ppl to go according to my wishes

that is a selfish behaviour

fuck this brain washing.

i must change.

i must remind myself to change.

breath breath breath

now i feel better.
:)