dear god
i wish to be more forgiving to those who make fun of, mock, give snide comments of my beliefs just because they think they are of a certain religion and think they're more superior than others. in fact, they're more concerned about heaven and hell than they are concerned about living the moment.
i also wish to be more forgiving to those who don't understand and are unable to accept the presence of other religions or beliefs.
last of all, i hope that ur kind will stop mocking us, making fun of my beliefs just only because i believe that there is really nothing up there except of air, water vapour and space.
fuck u, stop calling me a atheist and have a nice day
amen
* no, it is not funny that atheist rhymes with other words. u're stupid if u think that a joke can still be funny after repeating it ten times.
Friday, September 04, 2009
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
额。对了~~
韩国式、拥抱 says:
额。对了
[양사민] 五月八月 religion is really not on my side recently says:
啥事？
韩国式、拥抱 says:
教师节快乐~~~
你还算是教师。所以。嘿嘿~~
~~~~
还以为那些没用又忘恩负义的东西都把我给忘了，没想到他们心里还有我这个教了他们仅半年而又没什么成就的老师。 我想，这些点点滴滴，就是我当时的累，泪和苦换来最好的回报吧。
致天下所有的老师，别忘了，教师是最伟大的职业，是一个能因为那些不成器的孩子而落泪的职业，祝教师节快乐。
the owl connection
it sits on the table quietly, staring at me with those huge crooked eyes, nose a little out of place.
it tells that i need to mug hard, that i'm not alone, because somewhere in NUS Temasek Hall, there's i's other half, sitting on the other table, staring at the other person as well as she mugs hard too.
who said only twins had connection. :)
Friday, August 28, 2009
富贵花
还记的得中二时，学校带我们到花圃去参观。
那时刚好外婆中风入院了。
不知道为啥，看中了一颗毫不起眼的植物，就把它买下来，然后就默默地向那颗东西许愿，如果我好好的栽培它，那外婆就会好起来。
记得不久后，外婆也真的好起来了。那是六年前的事了。
那棵毫不起眼的植物就一直默默地长着，一直都不肯开花。
每次看到它，就不尽想起婆婆和外婆。
这次的七月，是婆婆和外婆走了之后的第一个七月吧。
它,偏偏在今年的中元节长了花蕾。昨天刚开了花。还是一对呢。
富贵花，开了。老爸通电时，第一句和我讲的就是这句话。
是好兆头吧，我问。
恩，还是一对呢。
好事成双吗，我说。
老爸笑了。
婆婆，外婆，相信...你们都过得还好吧。
那时刚好外婆中风入院了。
不知道为啥，看中了一颗毫不起眼的植物，就把它买下来，然后就默默地向那颗东西许愿，如果我好好的栽培它，那外婆就会好起来。
记得不久后，外婆也真的好起来了。那是六年前的事了。
那棵毫不起眼的植物就一直默默地长着，一直都不肯开花。
每次看到它，就不尽想起婆婆和外婆。
这次的七月，是婆婆和外婆走了之后的第一个七月吧。
它,偏偏在今年的中元节长了花蕾。昨天刚开了花。还是一对呢。
富贵花，开了。老爸通电时，第一句和我讲的就是这句话。
是好兆头吧，我问。
恩，还是一对呢。
好事成双吗，我说。
老爸笑了。
婆婆，外婆，相信...你们都过得还好吧。
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Happy Teachers Day =)
If a doctor, lawyer, or dentist had 40 people in his office at one time, all of whom had different needs, and some of whom didn't want to be there and were causing trouble, and the doctor, lawyer, or dentist, without assistance, had to treat them all with professional excellence for nine months, then he might have some conception of the classroom teacher's job.
— Donald D. Quinn
i've come to the conclusion that if i really want to backpack again. i can only do it alone or with someone who i am sure is mentally more mature than me and can take care of himself/herself. because i really can't take up e responsibility of looking after someone else. it's really tiring. and i don't want to be a mother yet.
i'm too easily affected by people.
i'm too easily affected by people.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
i'm going to hell
i think i'm either a atheist, satan, or a buddhist. wadever shit it is. i dun really care anymore.
it just pisses me off that sometimes, i still live in fear or letting ppl know my beliefs because i know how unaccepting ppl can be towards others who reject miracles as proof of existence for the man up there. and it irks me more to know that my mum, thanks to her siblings aka my aunty & uncles, who are pious to the point of just blind followers, ok that's not a fair judgment, they are pious to the point of irritating just sriously brain washed my mother, whom i've come to realise will believe every dumb thing that works when i fucking tell u it's pure coincidence.
up to this point, my maternal family has spend thousands on my grandmother's funeral, and what not. & my parents had to quarrel because my dad refused to pay his respects to the Buddhist monks cus he tot they were blood/money sucking assholes who didn't deserve his respect. HURHUR. i mean wadever. i just tot it was ridiculous that a chair placed on top of three tables stacked on top of each other can only be sat on by a person with HIGH order of religious cultivation. so this monk will go up there & chant & supposedly some high ranking deity will posses him and give him powers. i mean WTF, he's just got gd balance wad. i tell u if it wasn't for my mother i would have climbed up there & sat on it myself. then everyone will say i'm the reincarnation of BUDDHA. HAHAHA. POWDERFUL RITE.
& yes i'm fucking stressed in e first wk of sch. i'm screwed. LOL. only for now.
it just pisses me off that sometimes, i still live in fear or letting ppl know my beliefs because i know how unaccepting ppl can be towards others who reject miracles as proof of existence for the man up there. and it irks me more to know that my mum, thanks to her siblings aka my aunty & uncles, who are pious to the point of just blind followers, ok that's not a fair judgment, they are pious to the point of irritating just sriously brain washed my mother, whom i've come to realise will believe every dumb thing that works when i fucking tell u it's pure coincidence.
up to this point, my maternal family has spend thousands on my grandmother's funeral, and what not. & my parents had to quarrel because my dad refused to pay his respects to the Buddhist monks cus he tot they were blood/money sucking assholes who didn't deserve his respect. HURHUR. i mean wadever. i just tot it was ridiculous that a chair placed on top of three tables stacked on top of each other can only be sat on by a person with HIGH order of religious cultivation. so this monk will go up there & chant & supposedly some high ranking deity will posses him and give him powers. i mean WTF, he's just got gd balance wad. i tell u if it wasn't for my mother i would have climbed up there & sat on it myself. then everyone will say i'm the reincarnation of BUDDHA. HAHAHA. POWDERFUL RITE.
& yes i'm fucking stressed in e first wk of sch. i'm screwed. LOL. only for now.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Friday, August 07, 2009
rights...right
i think,no wait, i believe tt kids should be taught with the cane.
because no pain, no gain.
i'm totally irritated with parents, who think that their children should be informed of their "rights" in school. including "rights" to lodge a complain against a teacher if the teacher hits him/her.
so we end up having kids threatening teachers that they will "complain all the way to MOE" if the teachers punish them. if you find the tone of the kid familiar, look to the source. that's most probably what the parent sounded like when they taught them this line like it's a demon protection charm.
children with this new-found "rights" abuse it, because the only association they can see with punishment is that e teacher is an ass who should burn in hell. they don't see that punishment of the child comes from the teacher's anxiousness to want the child to do well, the teacher's anger from his/her unheeded advice given to the child. and if u think punishment by scolding, standing inside/outside works, think again.
parents have slowly come to see education as a service. we pay for the service. thus, we are right to demand that u teach our child academically & morally since education is the service u are providing. we are always right. yet, what they don't see is that this service is different from the commercial services you get, like the the manicures you get at the nail salon, or the hair cut u get at the hairdresser's.
in fact the concept of education being a "commercial activity" is so screwed up now a days that teachers are being treated like super-nannies, to teach a child academically like a tuition teacher, to resolve petty disputes among kids after school hours like a nanny, to be educate a child morally when parents are teaching the totally opposite at home i.e, parent asking the child to blatantly skip school because national day/sports day is not important.
education is not what u get in school. education means learning. and learning is beyond classrooms. u learn frm ppl around u, ppl u interact with in ur daily life, which means ur parents which are supposed to spend the most time with u. yet now kids are so deprived of all this love, that they come to sch, deprived, seeking to get all e attention they can from any adult, doing ridiculous things like declaring they have stomachache every 5 mins. parents cannot stand e fact that their child can be wrong. their child is perfect. *because the time they interact with their child is so little that sometimes, what they see everyday is just their child slping after they return home from work.* their child doesn't fight with friends. their child is e reincarnation of an angel.
maybe that's what education has produced, a generation of parents totally obsessed with how good or perfect they are. * rmb e times we wrote our own testimonial full of praise for our own damn achievements? * a generation of parents obsessed with the tag line, the customer is always right. a generation of parents who are so educated that they think they know every damn thing that they feel e teacher is wrong so if anything, THEY should correct the teachers, the teachers cannot correct their child.
sure, teachers have been in headlines for all e wrong reasons like molesting, demoralizing children, humiliating children by using lipstick to draw on them. but there're alot of teachers, many many more out there, working their hearts out for the kids. we joke about them in the staff room, discuss abt the craziest methods to torture them, but it all boils down to e love for e kids, e frustration at their inability to do what they think is best for them because most parents are just not seeing education in the right light.
if there's anything i learnt, it's what e vp said, whatever respect that the world has for teachers, we had better work hard to keep that respect, because there's really not much of it left.
it's so hard to stay true...
because no pain, no gain.
i'm totally irritated with parents, who think that their children should be informed of their "rights" in school. including "rights" to lodge a complain against a teacher if the teacher hits him/her.
so we end up having kids threatening teachers that they will "complain all the way to MOE" if the teachers punish them. if you find the tone of the kid familiar, look to the source. that's most probably what the parent sounded like when they taught them this line like it's a demon protection charm.
children with this new-found "rights" abuse it, because the only association they can see with punishment is that e teacher is an ass who should burn in hell. they don't see that punishment of the child comes from the teacher's anxiousness to want the child to do well, the teacher's anger from his/her unheeded advice given to the child. and if u think punishment by scolding, standing inside/outside works, think again.
parents have slowly come to see education as a service. we pay for the service. thus, we are right to demand that u teach our child academically & morally since education is the service u are providing. we are always right. yet, what they don't see is that this service is different from the commercial services you get, like the the manicures you get at the nail salon, or the hair cut u get at the hairdresser's.
in fact the concept of education being a "commercial activity" is so screwed up now a days that teachers are being treated like super-nannies, to teach a child academically like a tuition teacher, to resolve petty disputes among kids after school hours like a nanny, to be educate a child morally when parents are teaching the totally opposite at home i.e, parent asking the child to blatantly skip school because national day/sports day is not important.
education is not what u get in school. education means learning. and learning is beyond classrooms. u learn frm ppl around u, ppl u interact with in ur daily life, which means ur parents which are supposed to spend the most time with u. yet now kids are so deprived of all this love, that they come to sch, deprived, seeking to get all e attention they can from any adult, doing ridiculous things like declaring they have stomachache every 5 mins. parents cannot stand e fact that their child can be wrong. their child is perfect. *because the time they interact with their child is so little that sometimes, what they see everyday is just their child slping after they return home from work.* their child doesn't fight with friends. their child is e reincarnation of an angel.
maybe that's what education has produced, a generation of parents totally obsessed with how good or perfect they are. * rmb e times we wrote our own testimonial full of praise for our own damn achievements? * a generation of parents obsessed with the tag line, the customer is always right. a generation of parents who are so educated that they think they know every damn thing that they feel e teacher is wrong so if anything, THEY should correct the teachers, the teachers cannot correct their child.
sure, teachers have been in headlines for all e wrong reasons like molesting, demoralizing children, humiliating children by using lipstick to draw on them. but there're alot of teachers, many many more out there, working their hearts out for the kids. we joke about them in the staff room, discuss abt the craziest methods to torture them, but it all boils down to e love for e kids, e frustration at their inability to do what they think is best for them because most parents are just not seeing education in the right light.
if there's anything i learnt, it's what e vp said, whatever respect that the world has for teachers, we had better work hard to keep that respect, because there's really not much of it left.
it's so hard to stay true...
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
We are afraid.
Come to the edge,' he said.
They said, 'We are afraid.'
'Come to the edge,' he said.
They came.
He pushed them...
And they flew.
Peter McWilliams
~~
i think my blog is shit boring.i need 2 revamp. haha, that is if i can stop impregnating sims 3. wtf. no life. MUAHA
They said, 'We are afraid.'
'Come to the edge,' he said.
They came.
He pushed them...
And they flew.
Peter McWilliams
~~
i think my blog is shit boring.i need 2 revamp. haha, that is if i can stop impregnating sims 3. wtf. no life. MUAHA
Monday, August 03, 2009
I AM 58% CEDARIAN!♥
CEDARIANS!
Relive your memories of Cedar now!
Enjoy~
FOOD!
--------------------
1. [] You spent at least 1 year of your school life patronizing the ba chor mee stall
2. [] You cut queue at the ba chor mee stall
3. [] You had disgusting things in your food in the canteen at least once before.
4. [ ] You avoided the wan ton stall
5. [] You spent more pocket money on wedges and aunty lily's snacks than recess itself
6. [x] You miss CGSS canteen food
JOGGING!
--------------------
7. [x] You recall the jogging sessions in the old cedar campus
8. [x] You cheered your heart out during the twice weekly jogging sessions
9. [x] You sneaked off to the toilet halfway during jogging, returned to the track when the rest of the class finished and pretended like you ran the whole 1/2/3 rounds around the school
ATTIRE!
--------------------
10. [] you own at least 2 pairs of FBT shorts
11. [x] You got away with your skirt being too short
12. [x] Your socks were as low as possible
13. [x] You made every excuse to not change out of your PE attire
14. [x] You never buttoned the first button on your shirt on purpose.
15. [x] You tugged at and pulled your skirt down ALL YOU COULD the minute you heard the word "Spotcheck"
16. [x] You still wear your House/PE T shirt occasionally
17. [] You had shoelaces in your blouse
18. [x] You were one of the Cedarians who wore blouses that were one/two size(s) too big for you so that you could tuck it out more
19. [] You faked an injury to wear sandals/slippers to school
20. [] You wore jackets in school because it was ‘that’ cold
ASSEMBLIES!
--------------------
21. [x] Wednesday morning assemblies were nap time!
22. [ ] You fainted at least once during school assembly
23. [ ] You hid in the toilet/ Kolam Ayer CC/any other place because you were late for assembly, quickly joined your class after assembly was over and never got caught for being late
24. [x] You know about the Cedar clock tower story
25. [ ] You never tapped your ez link card at the kiosks because you were too lazy to queue up
26. [x] You remember when Ms Susan Leong made us sing the school song and national anthem again and again because she wasn't satisfied with the volume
27. [x] You never sang or sang the school song softly because your friends were doing so too
28. [ ] You went for friday assemblies just so that you could enjoy the aircon in the MPH
LESSONS/FRIENDS/RANDOM!
--------------------
29. [ ] You go to the toilet during lessons and only end up checking your hair/doing your hair/chatting with friends you accidentally ran into/checking your cool attire for at least ten minutes
30. [ ] You threatened a teacher that your parents will complain to XXX
31. [x ] You have at least one good friend from PB (Prefectorial Board)
32. [x ] You got away with eating in class
33. [x] You had the fattest pencil case because it was stuffed with all those coloured pens and markers
34. [ ] You still use the blue/black uni-ball ultra-fine 0.38 pen (or 0.28)
35. [x] You had a crush on a male teacher before
36. [ ] Your class scared a male teacher away before
37. [x] You caused a chain of effect of screams because you saw a bug/lizard
38. [ ] You were one of the brats who was picked up by your parent(s) everyday
39. [x] Alternatively, you got a lift from a friend whose parent(s) picked them up everyday
EVENTS!
--------------------
40. [x] You have been to at least one Speech Day
41. [x] You never understood why the prefects would always start the Cedar Solid cheer after every major event
42. [x] You remember the day when a senior class yelled HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS SIM from the fourth floor classrooms & Miss Sim looked up from the ground floor in the old campus
43. [ ] You never managed to fill up the donation cards for 50Laps@Cedar
44. [ ] You went to the Cedar Carnival on Valentine's Day & saw teachers getting dunked!
MEMORIES!
--------------------
45. [x] You wonder why we never actually had prom (for 2008 batch only!) or if you did have one, you wondered why it was always in the MPH
46. [ ] You admire the Class of 2008 for getting good results!
47. [x] You have at least three relatives who studied/are currently studying in CGSS
48. [x] You will send your daughter to CGSS
49. [x] You’ve gone back at least once to visit after graduating
50. [x] You wish you could relive it all over again.
Count your unchecked boxes.
Deduct that number from 50
Multiply by 2.
50-21=29
28 X 2= 58%
repost this as:
I AM _% CEDARIAN!♥
~~~
i was bored. & yes. i still miss cedar alot. our clock tower is gone :(
Relive your memories of Cedar now!
Enjoy~
FOOD!
--------------------
1. [] You spent at least 1 year of your school life patronizing the ba chor mee stall
2. [] You cut queue at the ba chor mee stall
3. [] You had disgusting things in your food in the canteen at least once before.
4. [ ] You avoided the wan ton stall
5. [] You spent more pocket money on wedges and aunty lily's snacks than recess itself
6. [x] You miss CGSS canteen food
JOGGING!
--------------------
7. [x] You recall the jogging sessions in the old cedar campus
8. [x] You cheered your heart out during the twice weekly jogging sessions
9. [x] You sneaked off to the toilet halfway during jogging, returned to the track when the rest of the class finished and pretended like you ran the whole 1/2/3 rounds around the school
ATTIRE!
--------------------
10. [] you own at least 2 pairs of FBT shorts
11. [x] You got away with your skirt being too short
12. [x] Your socks were as low as possible
13. [x] You made every excuse to not change out of your PE attire
14. [x] You never buttoned the first button on your shirt on purpose.
15. [x] You tugged at and pulled your skirt down ALL YOU COULD the minute you heard the word "Spotcheck"
16. [x] You still wear your House/PE T shirt occasionally
17. [] You had shoelaces in your blouse
18. [x] You were one of the Cedarians who wore blouses that were one/two size(s) too big for you so that you could tuck it out more
19. [] You faked an injury to wear sandals/slippers to school
20. [] You wore jackets in school because it was ‘that’ cold
ASSEMBLIES!
--------------------
21. [x] Wednesday morning assemblies were nap time!
22. [ ] You fainted at least once during school assembly
23. [ ] You hid in the toilet/ Kolam Ayer CC/any other place because you were late for assembly, quickly joined your class after assembly was over and never got caught for being late
24. [x] You know about the Cedar clock tower story
25. [ ] You never tapped your ez link card at the kiosks because you were too lazy to queue up
26. [x] You remember when Ms Susan Leong made us sing the school song and national anthem again and again because she wasn't satisfied with the volume
27. [x] You never sang or sang the school song softly because your friends were doing so too
28. [ ] You went for friday assemblies just so that you could enjoy the aircon in the MPH
LESSONS/FRIENDS/RANDOM!
--------------------
29. [ ] You go to the toilet during lessons and only end up checking your hair/doing your hair/chatting with friends you accidentally ran into/checking your cool attire for at least ten minutes
30. [ ] You threatened a teacher that your parents will complain to XXX
31. [x ] You have at least one good friend from PB (Prefectorial Board)
32. [x ] You got away with eating in class
33. [x] You had the fattest pencil case because it was stuffed with all those coloured pens and markers
34. [ ] You still use the blue/black uni-ball ultra-fine 0.38 pen (or 0.28)
35. [x] You had a crush on a male teacher before
36. [ ] Your class scared a male teacher away before
37. [x] You caused a chain of effect of screams because you saw a bug/lizard
38. [ ] You were one of the brats who was picked up by your parent(s) everyday
39. [x] Alternatively, you got a lift from a friend whose parent(s) picked them up everyday
EVENTS!
--------------------
40. [x] You have been to at least one Speech Day
41. [x] You never understood why the prefects would always start the Cedar Solid cheer after every major event
42. [x] You remember the day when a senior class yelled HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS SIM from the fourth floor classrooms & Miss Sim looked up from the ground floor in the old campus
43. [ ] You never managed to fill up the donation cards for 50Laps@Cedar
44. [ ] You went to the Cedar Carnival on Valentine's Day & saw teachers getting dunked!
MEMORIES!
--------------------
45. [x] You wonder why we never actually had prom (for 2008 batch only!) or if you did have one, you wondered why it was always in the MPH
46. [ ] You admire the Class of 2008 for getting good results!
47. [x] You have at least three relatives who studied/are currently studying in CGSS
48. [x] You will send your daughter to CGSS
49. [x] You’ve gone back at least once to visit after graduating
50. [x] You wish you could relive it all over again.
Count your unchecked boxes.
Deduct that number from 50
Multiply by 2.
50-21=29
28 X 2= 58%
repost this as:
I AM _% CEDARIAN!♥
~~~
i was bored. & yes. i still miss cedar alot. our clock tower is gone :(
FML
Today, I found out that my husband made a replica of our family on The Sims 3. I also found out he killed me off a couple weeks ago and made a new wife, KiKi. FML
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
life's profit graph
i think life's like a profit graph
there are times when e gradient of e graph is a steep upward slope
ironically, that's when u're facing set backs in ur life, when u feel that everything in life is going downhill, spiraling out of control. that's when u start questioning urself, u lose all ur beliefs & try to reorganise ur life, u suddenly learn who's important to u & how important u are to some ppl. u question e way u live & think. some ppl gain new faith, others grow stronger in their beliefs. that's where u gain e most out of life. that's when u grow as u climb up e steep gradient of e profit graph.
there are times when e gradient of e graph is negative, sloping downwards.
that's when u are complacent, when u think u know everything in e world, u start taking relationships for granted,when u feel that everything in life is under ur control. there is no humility, only pride. u hurt ppl, others turn away from u. before u noe it, u are alone & have gone down e slippery slope which denoting losses. u are at e bottom. deep shit bottom. u dun gain from life when there's pride. u only lose what life has to offer.
then, there are times when e gradient of e graph is zero. that's when it's stagnant.
here, it can either go up, or down.
u have either recovered from a set back, or are enjoying e fruits of ur labour. u are contented, hoping not to slip into complacency. u look forward to things each there, albeit whine once in a while about how boring life can get on an island surrounded by water.
that's where my life is now. stagnant but still looking forward to each day, hoping that i can achieve more than what is set out for me. knowing that i can end up somewhere good because there's a world out there. there's also this constant fear, a result of paranoia i guess, that i might just slip and fall, but excited at e possibility that i might also be climbing up a positive gradient where i discover more of life's wonders & beauty.
but whatever it is, no matter where it ends, one thing's for sure, u know tt u'll definitely be going up, & u'll always be gaining something, learning something new, maybe not today, maybe tomorrow. that's life.
there are times when e gradient of e graph is a steep upward slope
ironically, that's when u're facing set backs in ur life, when u feel that everything in life is going downhill, spiraling out of control. that's when u start questioning urself, u lose all ur beliefs & try to reorganise ur life, u suddenly learn who's important to u & how important u are to some ppl. u question e way u live & think. some ppl gain new faith, others grow stronger in their beliefs. that's where u gain e most out of life. that's when u grow as u climb up e steep gradient of e profit graph.
there are times when e gradient of e graph is negative, sloping downwards.
that's when u are complacent, when u think u know everything in e world, u start taking relationships for granted,when u feel that everything in life is under ur control. there is no humility, only pride. u hurt ppl, others turn away from u. before u noe it, u are alone & have gone down e slippery slope which denoting losses. u are at e bottom. deep shit bottom. u dun gain from life when there's pride. u only lose what life has to offer.
then, there are times when e gradient of e graph is zero. that's when it's stagnant.
here, it can either go up, or down.
u have either recovered from a set back, or are enjoying e fruits of ur labour. u are contented, hoping not to slip into complacency. u look forward to things each there, albeit whine once in a while about how boring life can get on an island surrounded by water.
that's where my life is now. stagnant but still looking forward to each day, hoping that i can achieve more than what is set out for me. knowing that i can end up somewhere good because there's a world out there. there's also this constant fear, a result of paranoia i guess, that i might just slip and fall, but excited at e possibility that i might also be climbing up a positive gradient where i discover more of life's wonders & beauty.
but whatever it is, no matter where it ends, one thing's for sure, u know tt u'll definitely be going up, & u'll always be gaining something, learning something new, maybe not today, maybe tomorrow. that's life.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
lugen
i guess if i lied hard enough, i might soon come to believe it, and then live it.
maybe there is no need to question e existence of religion. if u're just happy where u are, and if it makes u happy believing the miracles it have done for u, then why wonder how all it came about...
original sin
我像落花隨著流水 隨著流水飄向人海
人海茫茫不知身何在 總覺得缺少一份愛
《舊夢》
maybe there is no need to question e existence of religion. if u're just happy where u are, and if it makes u happy believing the miracles it have done for u, then why wonder how all it came about...
original sin
我像落花隨著流水 隨著流水飄向人海
人海茫茫不知身何在 總覺得缺少一份愛
《舊夢》
Sunday, July 12, 2009
still recovering from e 13 h plane ride
i think e 13 hr plane ride is a good buffer time for u to make a transition from to reality
like reading a fantasy book by neil gailman neverwhere helped.
so... despite that buffer time, my 1 wk sch experience in a sch so jealously guarding its prestige was pretty fucked up. cus my slping hours were all wrong and i had only 4 hrs of proper slp each day. another anal thing about tt sch was tt teachers' image was something they paid so much attention to that u felt that there was a security camera attached to ur ass 24/7. taking into consideration that i was half an hr late on one of the days, i pretty much screwed up on impression pts... that is if i even wanna step into that sch to be a full time.
n despite being a trainee language teacher to be, my English proficiency is dropping way below acceptable standards. FAITH I NEED TUITION!! LOLLOL
~~~
e power of love means
sometimes, despite ur initial promise to urself that u'll wring ur mother and throw her down the rubbish chute, u realise that's e way she is so instead of getting all flustered over that idiot, u'd rather do something more meaningful like like... not getting angry. haha. wth
i am still pissed though. haha. shit her. damn. haha
like reading a fantasy book by neil gailman neverwhere helped.
so... despite that buffer time, my 1 wk sch experience in a sch so jealously guarding its prestige was pretty fucked up. cus my slping hours were all wrong and i had only 4 hrs of proper slp each day. another anal thing about tt sch was tt teachers' image was something they paid so much attention to that u felt that there was a security camera attached to ur ass 24/7. taking into consideration that i was half an hr late on one of the days, i pretty much screwed up on impression pts... that is if i even wanna step into that sch to be a full time.
n despite being a trainee language teacher to be, my English proficiency is dropping way below acceptable standards. FAITH I NEED TUITION!! LOLLOL
~~~
e power of love means
sometimes, despite ur initial promise to urself that u'll wring ur mother and throw her down the rubbish chute, u realise that's e way she is so instead of getting all flustered over that idiot, u'd rather do something more meaningful like like... not getting angry. haha. wth
i am still pissed though. haha. shit her. damn. haha
Saturday, July 11, 2009
about the bitch
one thing i seriously cannot stand abt my mother
she's a fucking bitch
bitch to e max
there's nvr once we can stay for a long period of time at home without wanting to kill her
she likes to insist on her way of doing things.
and if things go seriously wrong and she's being forced to apologise, she'll just shrug it off as it's no big deal. fuck her. and den when we do smthing that is not to her liking she makes such a fucking big fuss about it. fuck that fuck bitch. damn motherfucker.
so im telling u, we will all move out of this damn fucked up house sooner or later.
or else one day i'll fucking just wring her neck and throw her down e rubbish chute.
fucking chee bai.
she's a fucking bitch
bitch to e max
there's nvr once we can stay for a long period of time at home without wanting to kill her
she likes to insist on her way of doing things.
and if things go seriously wrong and she's being forced to apologise, she'll just shrug it off as it's no big deal. fuck her. and den when we do smthing that is not to her liking she makes such a fucking big fuss about it. fuck that fuck bitch. damn motherfucker.
so im telling u, we will all move out of this damn fucked up house sooner or later.
or else one day i'll fucking just wring her neck and throw her down e rubbish chute.
fucking chee bai.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
taste that life
it's pretty ironic
how MJ with his much chaotic and almost insane lifestyle like molesting boys (dun noe true or nt still), dangling his baby over the balcony is instantly forgotten or only stated matter of factly after he dies. all this just pales in comparison to his legacy, his death, his very neglected childhood that makes u feel pity for him. pity, only comes in after death.
i guess that's wad happens to anyone dead anyway. when they're alive, they can be the reincarnation of satan but death immediately makes them an angel, all sins forgotten or forgiven, all evil hidden under that sheen of angelic light.
~~~
i wonder
why we don't talk that much anymore.
but i guess we all have to move on.
with or without each other
that's life
that's life shoved in ur face. taste it. bitter, cold & cruel.
how MJ with his much chaotic and almost insane lifestyle like molesting boys (dun noe true or nt still), dangling his baby over the balcony is instantly forgotten or only stated matter of factly after he dies. all this just pales in comparison to his legacy, his death, his very neglected childhood that makes u feel pity for him. pity, only comes in after death.
i guess that's wad happens to anyone dead anyway. when they're alive, they can be the reincarnation of satan but death immediately makes them an angel, all sins forgotten or forgiven, all evil hidden under that sheen of angelic light.
~~~
i wonder
why we don't talk that much anymore.
but i guess we all have to move on.
with or without each other
that's life
that's life shoved in ur face. taste it. bitter, cold & cruel.
grow
to be a teacher means
learning to draw the line between urself and the student
it means not making e same mistakes u made a yr back
it means that u'll continue to instill in them the love for learning.
it means not to forget why u chose NIE, not because u had no other choice, but u chose, out of ur own free will, to be continually inspired by the ppl who have taught and e ppl u will teach in time to come.
learning to draw the line between urself and the student
it means not making e same mistakes u made a yr back
it means that u'll continue to instill in them the love for learning.
it means not to forget why u chose NIE, not because u had no other choice, but u chose, out of ur own free will, to be continually inspired by the ppl who have taught and e ppl u will teach in time to come.
Saturday, July 04, 2009
smartness
2nd july
nie wants us to take a leave of absence for 7 days which means that my practicum and stuff will be affected.
3rd july
moe says tt moh has realised tt e stupid home quarantine is well... stupid so since itll be lifted on 6july, e leave of absence will not come into effect. nie has not made any announcements as yet.
and to tell u e truth, e home quarantine thing is just downright lame, i have 4 other ppl in my family, they work, they step out of e house, how e hell will it be effective if 4 other ppl can move around freely while at e same time are able to interact with me without any precautionery measures. u think germs only stay on one person ah. and i probably would have cause a outbreak in changi airport as well since i covered alot of area from the time i alighted e plane till e time i met with my family at e hall. wadever
LOSE.
nie wants us to take a leave of absence for 7 days which means that my practicum and stuff will be affected.
3rd july
moe says tt moh has realised tt e stupid home quarantine is well... stupid so since itll be lifted on 6july, e leave of absence will not come into effect. nie has not made any announcements as yet.
and to tell u e truth, e home quarantine thing is just downright lame, i have 4 other ppl in my family, they work, they step out of e house, how e hell will it be effective if 4 other ppl can move around freely while at e same time are able to interact with me without any precautionery measures. u think germs only stay on one person ah. and i probably would have cause a outbreak in changi airport as well since i covered alot of area from the time i alighted e plane till e time i met with my family at e hall. wadever
LOSE.
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