i'm so srry
i can't trust u...
based on experience... based on instinct
yet my actions now betray my heart
cus i know by keeping in contact with u
i bring myself more trouble
i dun hate u.... really... it's just that i feel that these are things that we should avoid
i know once it starts it never ends
then i'll start finding excuses, finding reasons to run
i do not want this life.... it goes against my conscience
it makes me tired....
if so why maintain this friendship?
i know u will hate me for this...
i will be accused of being a hypocrite or whatever u wanna call me
but suddenly it doesn't matter anymore
i mean... why should it matter?
i'm really really sorry
i really am...

so this spells the end... does it?
~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come