stupidity stops now

u haf more to lose than to gain
so i obviously wasnt thinking when my act of stupidity was performed
twice
n it is sooooooo easy to convince urself that this guilt
can be easily buried somewhere deep inside

lust. is a more poweful feeling
than love

maybe

maybe life is about giving it all
without caring abt the returns
n then maybe
maybe, u won't be afraid
of ur heart breaking
because u could always grow another heart back
with hope
with love
n with time

love is

love is simple
my mum said
dun expect fairy tales
u're only expecting disappointments
just love
n keep it simple

every morning
she wakes up with pieces of her life on the floor
n one by one she slowly picks them up
shame guilt joy memorise recollections and what nots
mostly shame now
it's the shame guilt n uncertainty that cuts the most

maybe i'm thinking too much into things

as usual

maybe it's not a big deal

but if u knew i was going to be emo

why didn't u call to ask if i was ok?

maybe she's right

u're not that simple after all

i need a time out

after wednesday

i need to sort things out

with myself

alone

just leave me alone

cliff jumping

and we took a step too far
so now we're off the cliff
we can't turn back
n decide that we want to stand at the edge again
it's just free falling now
n damn i really hope the parachute will open
before i hit the ground.

3 months
i don't know if i want it to work
or if i just want it to end

maybe

maybe this is why i didn't want to commit.
the effort that would require me to change.
i hate change
n i'm too selfish to do it for someone else

laughter abused

i abuse this joy
too much

n i have only myself to blame

if no one really knows what i'm thinking

i don't really want them to know do i?

i'm so full of shit. i'll just smile n lie in ur face

when i'm just crying inside

the stupid things i do

the night was spent refreshing the changi arrival page
till 'landed' appeared
n i made an estimation of how long it wld take for u to reach home
"welcome home"

:)

the cheap fallacies that mean nothing to u at all

i don't understand
so am i at fault for feeling this way?
am i not entitled to feel this way?
so just because u make sense all the time n i dont
ur anger would always mean that i am at fault
and thereafter every utterance i make
can only be fuel for ur anger
but not the other way round
i have to be totally at fault
deeply apologetic and show willingness to repent
and most of all be sincere about my apology
if not, nothing else counts
only ur anger n arguments makes sense
e rest, would just be fallacies.
cheap fallacies that mean nothing to u at all