damn shit u r

at least now i know it's nt my fault.

HURHUR

thank you LORD of telling me the TRUTH.

THE Right Brain vs Left Brain test

THE Right Brain vs Left Brain test ... do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise?

If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa.

Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

taken frm here.

atheoi - the "immoral" ones

The Greek word αθεοι (atheoi), as it appears in the Epistle to the Ephesians (2:12) on the early 3rd-century Papyrus 46. It is usually translated into English as "[those who are] without God"

somehow, whenever i recall e things that my friends said to me regarding my beliefs out of contempt, blatant disregard or whatever was in their heads, i just feel alot of anger and hate. i hate ppl who don't understand, i hate ppl who label me.

but in e end, it's all just a pile of junk, unpleasant memories tt i have no wish to keep, but yet cannot forget.

religious issues have been generating alot of buzz & hate globally that u really wonder if they're tt peace loving as they claim to be. religion is evolving, so much so tt ppl are so aggressive when they talk abt it. seems to me like everyone just wants to have their piece of pie. what shld we be saying nxt? i pray for world peace?

"A child of the mob once asked an astronomer who the father was who brought him into this world. The scholar pointed to the sky, and to an old man sitting, and said: 'That one there is your body's father, and that your soul's.' To which the boy replied: 'WHAT IS ABOVE US IS OF NO CONCERN TO US, and I'm ashamed to be the child of such an aged man!' O WHAT SUPREME impiety, not to want to recognize your father, and not to think God is your maker!

Emblem illustrating practical atheism and its historical association with immorality, titled "Supreme Impiety: Atheist and Charlatan", from Picta poesis, by Barthélemy Aneau, 1552.

*shrugs*

i think when u age a certain age in life, u'll have stop self reflection & lived the way u've lived for e past i-dont-know-how-many years. which make asses worse asses & nice ppl nicer ppl.

i bet i'm nt making sense. i bet i don't make sense most of e time which results in me be always incurring e wrath of some asshole.
which is why i have to learn to be more street smart.
there's no use just ranting & then cursing and swearing @ e source when it doesn't change much of e way i handle e source, which is a troublesome, emotional and always bordering on e verge of insanity.

rebellion doesn't always have to be on e surface. underground guerrilla warfare has always worked in e past, i bet this is gonna work well for me

*shrugs*

shut e fuck up

i finally got e courage to watch e channel U show, Shoot aka 有话就说and i hated it to e core.
if u ask me, i think 蔡深江 is a big blardy asshole. big bloody idiotic asshole. and if u ask me why, let me list the funcking reason.

he loves to thumb down teenagers, like he was born an adult & had nvr gone thru e teenage phase. he speaks as if he knows everything about the teenage mentality. in fact, he goes to great lengths to psychoanalyze and twist the mentality of teenagers to the point where teenagers are simply implied to be brats, emo kids, brainless apathetic condescending bunch of useless freaks who cannot express themselves verbally, and have to resort to self mutilation as a form of expression.

WHAT THE FUCK.

i mean seriously if u're tt smart, how come u're just pointing the "blame" at teenagers for being who we are today. u mean what, all of us are some mutated freaks different from ur fucking generation so it's wrong of us to be teenagers? HELLO??!! WAKE UP UR IDEA, who made us into the teenagers we are today who can only express ourselves on blogs? it's e fucking society and to be specific, fuckers like u who love to blame e product for being faulty when u put e batteries in e wrong direction & it's nt working to ur liking.

e fucking society here condemns those who speak, even in more extreme cases, removes the person who speaks more than he's supposed to. think of Mr Brown, think of e few small pathetic protest we have because of e tudung issue, think of e MOST EMBARRASING time when the IMF came to singapore and our generous govt gave a small area located inside a god knows what place for small, non violent protest. THERE IS A FUCKING DESIGNATED AREA FOR PROTEST! HOW INGENIOUS IS TT?? so what can we do? if the government thinks expressing of opinions is fucking harmful to the society, e only way we can be expressive is only through blogs, and if they've successfully dampened our interest in politics and society and made us into apathetic youths, where else can we focus our energy on besides on ourselves?

look at UK!! LOOK AT UK!!! THEY HAVE A YOUTH MINISTER! AND THEY HAVE A NATIONAL FORUM TO INFLUENCE UNIVERSITY POLICIES!
tell me, how can kids in tt area be apathetic when they can protest abt things tt affect them. THEY HAVE A VOICE WHICH IS HEARD! WE HAVE A FUCKING VOICE WHICH IS LOST A LONG LONG TIME AGO.

so 蔡深江, shut e fuck up honestly. there's so much about youths tt u don't know.

Jesus Camp

Quotes from Becky Fischer a Pentecostal children's pastor

I can go into a playground of kids that don't know anything about Christianity, lead them to the Lord in a matter of, just no time at all, and just moments later they can be seeing visions and hearing the voice of God, because they're so open. They are so usable in Christianity.

If you look at the world’s population, 1/3 of that 6.7 billion ppl are children under the age of 15. Where should we be putting our efforts? Where should we be putting our focus? I’ll tell u where the enemies are putting it, they’re putting it on e kids.

I want to see young ppl who are as committed to the cause of Jesus Christ as the young ppl are to e cause of Islam. I wanna see them as radically laying down their lives for the gospel as they are over in Pakistan, in Israel and Palestine and all those different places you know because we have, excuse me, but we have the truth.

(When preparing for e bible camp) Let’s just walk ard the fuse & stuff, & pray over the seats in the name of Jesus. Father we pray over the electrical systems, we pray the electricity will not go out in this building in Jesus name because of storms or any other reason. Now I just pray over this equipment, we speak over the PowerPoint presentations, all over the video projectors and we’ll say devil we know what you love to do in meetings like this & we say u will not in Jesus name, you will not prevent this msg frm going out.

Levi Parents(when home-schooling Levi.)
Parent: The summers over in US over the past few years have been very warm, as a result, global warming must be real. What’s wrong with this reasoning?

Levi: it’s only got up 0.6 degrees

Parent: Yar it’s not really a big problem isit?

Levi: No, I don’t think it’s gonna hurt us.

Parent to the camera later: Our belief is there are 2 kinds of ppl in the world. People who believe in jesus and ppl who don’t.

Quotes from Mike Papantonio (radio talk show host)

Everything they do, they say they do in the name of God, that we need to go to war in the name of God.

Why are kids taught that global warming doesn’t exist? Ok, why? Look, rape this world, rape this earth, take everything u want because u know what, it doesn’t matter. We’re not here for very long. Christ is coming to take us away from earth so cut down our trees, use all of our oil, take advantage of everything the earth has to offer. That’s y do you hear them getting involve in issues like global warming? And u want to shake them and u wanna say that what is it tt u’re nt understanding abt the fundamentals of Christianity? How did u get here? Our president is still telling Americans we should teach creationism in our schools. That we should teach it right alongside with evolution.

Quotes from Ted Haggard, a former American evangelical preacher

Haggard is a firm supporter of President George W. Bush, and is sometimes credited with rallying evangelicals behind Bush during the 2004 election
(Less than two months after the release of the film, Haggard became embroiled in a high-profile scandal involving, among other things, homosexual prostitution, & methamphetamine possession.)

We believe that you have to emphasis, ppl younger than u in order for ur church in a healthy way. Kids are everything. They love the evangelical msg, god loves them, the bible is the word of god, they are gifts from god. So all the public schools telling them they’re animals, they are the product of natural selection. We tell them god loves u, god created u, u have a purpose in life. I mean the kids are just, loving it.

And so it’s an awful lot of ppl and we’re growing. It’s got enough growth to essentially to sway every election. If the evangelicals vote, they determine the election. It’s a fabulous life!

~~~

there was just alot of crying, alot of words like war, spirit, ghost being thrown around. war..

yet despite all these, they r just kids.

and i still think george w bush is a blardy idiot.

FIRE!!?? DO WE RUN?

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

it is now 2am & there's a fire at my block! i repeat: MY BLOCK IS ON FIRE!!!

just rushed down in time to snap a few photos & choke in e stinkin smoke. CAN U BELIEVE IT?! A FIRE AT MY BLOCK? how in e world is tt? HAHAHAHA. and i was there getting so amused with all e residents running down in their PJs, taking photos, coughing & wheezing etc etc etc etc.

and my mum was there calling 995 and then asking them "do we run?"
HAHAHA. i noe i'm nt supposed to laugh, but it's just funny. o.O WHEEEEEEEE

will upload e photos later. as u can see, am extremely high & tired now. bleahx. just excited u noe. i mean u dun get to see fires at ur block everyday. & it's 2am i repeat! HAHA. & it's nt tt big a fire though, just enuff to spread to e 2nd floor. XD

CIAO! tata!

sometimes, i think i'm slowly losing myself, conforming myself to what is considered a norm in order to "survive" & to just be "happy".

how much of u do i not know.

the irony of being human

i love stupidity... humans r really stupid. face it & see e light. go save urself frm hell.

just so you know

somehow, i've this fear tt all these are just going in e very wrong direction.

but i just want what's e best for u. or maybe us.

when is e line crossed? what have i taught tt is wrong or right? what values r "morally right" & what values r wrong?

who am i sacrificing?

how do i look for all these when u're all gone?

10 yrs later, 10 yrs later, 10 yrs later....

i wld be 29, where wld u be?

widdle wabbits

welcome to the widdle wabbits club!

there are many reasons why we love wabbits. because they r nt just cute, but VERY cute.

membership has been overwhelming since e club was first started. in fact, many ppl are frantically trying to join e club at this moment because wabbits are just so irresistible.







considering e history tt we've had with wabbits, e formidable wabbit is nt just an animal which we can ignore. wabbit 万岁!

e official club dance


president: echizen, chee, estel
vice president: echizen, chee, estel
treasurer: echizen, chee, estel
secretary: echizen, chee, estel

members!
echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel, echizen, chee, estel

Erratum

i have no idea what is Erratum until today. which shows how sucky my eng is.

and it is a nearby hospital, nt the nearby hospital, if u're referring to it for e first time. XD

recently, i've found e need to constantly remind myself tt i'm only 19. ONLY NINETEEN. nt 20 nor 21.

maybe i shld start planning for my 21st bday. which i'm nt really looking forward to anyway.

e kids are giving me e hell of a time. because they're enjoying life when e exams is near. maybe tt's why parents gets so agitated, & nt e kids, when e exams are coming. it's because they're jealous tt e kids can be so relaxed during e exam period while they get all hyped out. HAHAHA

there's a joke going ard e staffroom recently. because e p3 kids had this compo exam with a pict of currypuffs with hseflies buzzing ard it, meaning to say tt e food is contaminated. but i think they took it literally & started writing abt how they vomited or had diarrhoea after eating "currypuffs with houseflies" or as some say it in a more direct way "HOUSEFLY CURRYPUFFs"

void

u noe they always have these villains in e movie, chiding e protagonist for being too sentimental or emotional. e sad thing is tt e gd will always triumph over evil in e end so tt all e gd ppl live happily ever after. somehow i pity e villains more. protagonists have such a gd life. they, or in many cases, we know that they'll always survive. somehow..

y be emotional & dreamy abt a rosy future? it's a whole lot of bullshit. like my mum always tells us of her stupid naive dreams of living in a big hse during her retirement years. i hate it when gives me all this whole lot of bullshit abt her retirement in condos, big houses & travelling overseas to european ctries. she says tt i'm too sensitive to all these when i tell her tt she's giving me stress & she shld just snap out of this kind of stupid daydream. which is also why i really hate naive ppl who have complete disregard for reality, ppl who r filthy rich & take it for granted.

it's like when i don't work, i'll have these panic attacks of nt having enough money for my future, or e fact tt i'm nt earning money because i'm sick makes me so fuckingly stressed up tt i hate being brought up this way with these kind of fucked up mentality. i'm really nt tt poor. i'm nt tt in need of money either. i don't want to b a fucking miser. i don't want to feel stressed up over every cent i spent. i dont' want to feel guilty if i spend more than i shld. i don't know... i guess deep down, really really deep down inside me, i'm just secretly hoping tt i can make her dreams become reality.

guess it's just a materialistic wish huh...

detachment...

i believe tt's e only way to survive "successfully"

just detach. & nthing will be there.

fuck it all.

Losing Hope

This was an opportunity for them to express themselves for the first time after 20 years. Their eyes are on the international community, their only hope is that the world will see their plight and help them.

But when they hear that support for the demonstrations is dwindling and time passes by without help from anyone, they lose hope. They are getting disillusioned and eventually they'll give up.

"There is no peace in this world," she said. "There is just strife, strife, strife, and I want it to stop."

pms

i know i shldn't...

but i've been missing alot of ppl lately.

especially e times in cedar. seniors who have left, succesfully graduated frm universities & are in other parts of e world now...

i wonder if they rmb me. that there was once this person, all crazy & melancholy. that there was once this person, & she's thinking of u right now.

there r ppl who still think tt teaching is a dead end job. in many ways yes... salary's nt high, parents r nt cooperative, workload sucks, but i guess i just have to hold on... for the things i first started believing in..

~thought u shld know, i tried my best to let go of u, but i don't want to...

this invisible dream...

something out there... is calling for me...

take me now...

The trial record demonstrates her remarkable intellect. The transcript’s most famous exchange is an exercise in subtlety. “Asked if she knew she was in God’s grace, she answered: ‘If I am not, may God put me there; and if I am, may God so keep me.‘” The question is a scholarly trap. Church doctrine held that no one could be certain of being in God’s grace. If she had answered yes, then she would have convicted herself of heresy. If she had answered no, then she would have confessed her own guilt.

~ Joan of Arc

there's no need to fight e inevitable... we just have to take what comes & let go of what has to go.

it's so ironic, because what we've learnt in school, morals, blah blah blah blah, doesn't really come in much in my daily life. we learn about responsibilities, about taking responsibilities for our own action, yet when we start working, we learn how to push away responsibilities, we start to learn how to cover up our asses to avoid being pushed e blame. e ironies...

& i hate e system, really... can't i just tell u tt i hate e system? if we're supposed to do what's best for a child, doesn't that include advising them what's best at e expense of ur school's reputation? what shld come first?

btw, i'll be going away on a long long trip during e sch hols! hahaha. like finally we can go somewhere that is nt just 3D2Ns kinda of thing. but money still remains a constrain. wadever.

examination in progress

this is what i look like to my students.

this is my brother trying to "fry the ant" which is too small to be captured on my lousy hp camera on e table in e hawker centre

this is my insane "roommate" trying to wrap a toy bear with e new lacy underwear tt mummy dear bought for us.... o.o we all miss our childhood days of dressing up dolls... in clothes i mean. XD

the end result was somehow... more normal den we expected. :)

for those who haven't seen me for a long while & 've forgotten how what i look like, this is me feeling narcissistic

& here's a happy belated children's day to all, including adults with their inner child still alive & kicking, to all kids, beautiful, normal & nt normal alike. we love u. always. XD

my children's day gift! WHEEEE! frm my teacher! haha, reason y i love to teach in my alma matta.
meanwhile, i'm currently sick.. yes... again. i've been falling ill alot recently.
my status as shown below...

toodle's XD

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